IT IS IVY TIME~

我又搬家了

2010-01-25T13:54:00.000-08:00

这里已经荒芜很久，
我又搬家了，
说走就走，重新来过。
新博客的地址发邮件问我要吧。
queenofnothingness@gmail.com
jiajia and airylea, 我好像不能在你们的博克上留言了呢？？

帅爹辣妈

2009-07-31T12:18:00.000-07:00

青霞阿姨到了我妈这个年纪也不过如此了吧。

黑乎乎的Damon 被我的气质型男老爹给比下去辣。

他们如此靓丽矍铄，我心甚安。
太开心辣~~

机器猫语录（４）

2009-07-21T01:24:00.000-07:00

副标题：我们都是无厘头

和机器猫讲电话，她夸我这一段生活平静。
我说只不过是波澜不惊。
机器猫认为平静和波澜不惊是identical 的，　我只好解释给她：平静是由内而外都无事，　波澜不惊只是表面的平静。
我这么一说，机器猫来了兴致：哦，那就是说你内心不平静喽？
我很平静的回答：嗯，我的内心很动荡。
常善解人意，　爱刨根问底，喜窥探内心的机器猫关怀备至的问：你为啥动荡啊呀～～
我一本正经，实事求是，严肃认真的告诉她：我内心一直都很动荡，只不过有时内心动荡，表面也动荡；有时候内心动荡，表面波澜不惊而已。　
她终于看出我是在无厘头，说，　那你接着动荡吧。
嗯，很好，长此以往有两种可能，一是机器猫再也不理我了，　二是机器猫会变得和我一样无厘头。哈哈

机器猫语录（３）

2009-07-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

副标题：我就喜欢欺负你

机器猫非要看我另外一个Ｒ－Ｒａｔｅｄ　ｂｌｏｇ。　
我没好气地责怪她：这个博客她都从来不留言，　干嘛又要看别的。
机器猫无辜且柔软的说：我每次都绞尽脑汁，也不知道说什么呀啊～～
不说还好一说我就更没好气了，　恶狠狠的说：你的脑汁都拔丝了！然后爆发了一长串格外夸张的大笑。
机器猫又委屈了,说我：讨厌！
这种委屈型的‘讨厌’根本就是在助长了我的嚣张气焰，等我笑顺气了说：哇～～欺负你好开心啊～
善解人意的机器猫一语中第：你欺负人的时候总是很开心！

机器猫语录（２）

2009-07-19T06:55:00.000-07:00

副标题：机器猫是不食人间烟火的闷骚

我说机器猫是那种浪漫无比型的闷骚，　一眼就能看出来。
她很无邪的问，　你怎么看的呀啊？～～　
我抖底：那还用说吗？你一向喜欢买那些美观好看又无用的东西。
机器猫美滋滋的反驳我说：我比较注重生活质量！
我叹气，反驳：　你只不过是比较注重生活表面质量而已！　买个花瓶摆家里生活水平就提高了吗？　还不如买块肉呢！
机器猫哼唧了一会儿委屈又小声地说：买块肉还要煮两个小时，　吃完了还要洗碗。。。

噢，我突然就明白了什么叫不食人间烟火。

机器猫语录（１）

2009-07-18T09:53:00.000-07:00

副标题：你要不要和我一起风

和机器猫商量要不要周末在中国城碰个头，商量要不要穿matching outfit.　讨论过程如下：
我提议说：要不要走民族风，　
机器猫：上次不是走过民族风了吗？
我说：你上次穿的那个花花裙不算。
机器猫：那我没有旗袍呀啊～～
我说：中国５６个民族好不好，不要一民族就穿旗袍。　
机器猫毫不理会我这么深邃的论点，　很没好气地说：那我也没有！　

我只好问她：那你说好了，走什么风？
机器猫默磨唧唧：西洋风吧啊？～～
我很不屑：西洋风怎么穿？不就是个小ｄｒｅｓｓ吗？俗！

我毫不气馁的接着提议：那么超短风呢？
机器猫天真无邪的问：多短呀啊～？
我斩钉截铁：膝盖４寸以上，臀部以下１寸内。　
机器猫也斩钉截铁：我不穿！

我又说：那透视风呢？露肩风呢？高跟风呢？
机器猫跟我急了，　气急败坏说：我是闷骚好不好，我哪有又短又透又露的衣服呀啊？！

随便摘抄娜娜email 上的一句话都能让我笑半天

2009-07-01T08:28:00.000-07:00

"买东西的事情我不跟你客气我好好想想米国有嘛东西可以买作为物质极大丰富的中国银民我可以选择的范围是那么那么的小痛苦ING "
--娜娜

天涯若比邻

2009-06-23T07:42:00.001-07:00

昨日和娜娜打电话，正是她的上午11点。
我说，上班时间能唠嗑不？
她说，不太能，你直奔主题。
我说，那好，就是想给你说一下，咱爸咱妈签过了。。你。。。
我还没说完，
娜娜激动的接过话头说，好得很，你还要啥快说，我好赶紧给你买，让咱爸咱妈给你带过去。
我说，你咋不等我奔到主题就接话呢？我是要说，你想要啥，赶紧说，我好买了让咱爸咱妈给你带过去。你又接我话半儿抢我风头。
两个人就都嗤嗤嘎嘎的笑，好在她的办公室比较嘈杂，否则笑的这么放肆肯定是要被主任骂的。
然后，两个话唠以最快速度絮叨，娜说，昨天买蚊帐的时候还想你来着，你们那儿有蚊子没有？要不要也给你买个，国内的蚊帐老高级了。我说，上回给你带的相机好用不？准备给你买个摄像机，这样有了娃以后方便记录成长。。。
我说上次你替我买东西的钱咋不问咱爸要呢？
她说，没啥．
上千呢？
没啥呀～
我说，那我再去定几个１５克拉的大钻戒？
她说，死去！
只要我们两个占据了电话线的两端必定会有一通又一通压倒一切的大笑．中间没有１３个小时的时差，也没有几千英里的距离．　　

还有茄子
这里倒叙一下，在爸妈准备去北京签证之前，我给他们定了个四星的酒店下榻。可是却不知怎么付钱，只好打电话咨询茄子。
来龙去脉刚说完，茄子就说，你别管了，我替你出了不就行了。
我说，不行，一百两百就算了，这。。被茄强硬的打断，不要这么小家子气，我去上班了！挂了我的电话。
我发了封邮件大概说了下地址和金额，两天后收到茄子邮件 ‘mission accomplished’;
我当即回 ‘闪开，请让我为茄总唱歌！’ 基本也是心声。

细想起来，我已经间歇的周期的骚扰了茄子这么多年．　起初刚来美国的时候，那么多苦水，都源源不绝的朝着茄哥吐．
还由明知故问，　我这么婆婆妈妈，你烦不烦呀？
茄子深明大义说，不烦，我是你的痰盂儿，　你只管吐就好了．　
一想到，风流倜傥英姿飒爽的茄子把自己比做痰盂儿，　我这边随即破涕为笑，哽哽咽咽的说，那啥，你是景泰蓝的．．．
时不常地，茄子发来一封‘北京吃喝玩乐好去处’的单子，并标注‘既然你吃不到，看一看也是好的’。嗯，我真的一条一条的都看了，一边咽着口水。

和肖妹妹很少联系了，可是从来没有不惦记着，前一段最低谷的时候，隐晦的表达了自己的不顺与忐忑。
肖妹妹信回的很简洁，他说，姐，我相信你能摆平一切。
眼前，徒然出现了那个自习课上在后黑板上写下，丹妮就是力量！的男孩子，那个一笑两个酒窝，头发毛茸茸的男孩子。

娜娜总是说，你一个人离家那么远，要开心些，不要受委屈，又说，你性子急遇事想三分，不要发脾气。
亲爱的，这些我都知道，我还知道，只要你们活在这个世上，天涯对我来说，只是比邻．　

美~~

2009-06-17T14:55:00.000-07:00

还是喜欢牡丹，
欲望繁盛，且毫不掩饰，
完全是明骚代言的范儿~

（拍于自家小院儿）

The World

2009-05-04T13:20:00.000-07:00

China Acoording to BeiJing

China Acoording to Shang Hai

China Acoording to HeNan

China Acoording to Me

活色生香 (2)

2009-04-23T14:04:00.001-07:00

Subtitle: 劳改

他犯错了，错就错在他长的太漂亮，让哀家纳了他。可是实战中他perform poorly 还磨伤了哀家的脚后跟。调教之后有所进步，可仍旧偶尔犯错。哀家的银两怎能为了他打水漂儿？！送去劳改！

为了帮助他劳动改造，我每次刷厕所的时候都穿他。

侬没看错，挨家刷厕所丢垃圾的时候都是这个造型，心情好的时候，还搭网眼袜。我一直很龟毛的认为女人作家务的时候应该是性感的而非邋遢的，所以一直很龟毛的坚持着这个原则，同学们虽不理解，也不反对，相安无事。

他随我已四年，至今没出过家门，仍在劳改。无人知它存在。

活色生香 (1)

2009-04-23T13:46:00.000-07:00

Subtitle: Hey Mr. Dreamy

虽然BCBG 和 BURBERRY 是哀家极其中意的两个牌子，但是两枚却完全不在一个档次上，我的意思是， BCBG要低好几档。好在两者都秉着优雅基于简洁的路数，有的时候interchangeable, 所以在舍不得砸钱买BURBERRY的WEDGE时候就有了Mr. Dreamy 的诞生。

成为Mr. Dreamy 的道路都不是一帆风顺的，起初的时候他很挤脚，流放到地下室一段时间之后有所改观；后来又让我掌心痛，再度被流放；上了征途没多久便残疾，扳扣与鞋体分离，这让我很郁闷，所以Mr. Dreamy第三度被流放，这次长达2年之久。

前段时间由于另一双元老抱病无法出征我才又把Mr. Dreamy 召出，看他摸样俊俏，Curve优雅，于是长叹一口气，DIY 吧，哀家给你手术。手术的过程是这样的，截一条退伍的黑色Bra肩带一英寸，火燎两头以免走线，用针线缝在鞋邦上，因为没有锥子，所以只能用顶针和蛮力。鞋帮是双层牛皮，固若金汤，可是哀家那结实的肱二头肌也不是练来绣花儿的（当然也不是练来修鞋的）。坐在床边，把Mr. 夹在两腿之间，一手扶稳鞋帮，一手气运指尖推针引线，吭吭嗤嗤，起死回生。

现在的Mr. Dreamy 得宠深厚，风骚无两。穿裙子时踩他，穿裤子时踩他，喝茶逛街踩他，会友谈心踩他，上班办公踩他，当然追公共汽车时踩得也是他。正因为他就任我美鞋梦之队领队之职，才有了Dreamy 之称，他为我效忠的时候到了。

杂

2009-01-31T10:48:00.001-08:00

08 年对我来说是惨淡坎坷的一年，看似波澜不惊的每一天，暗藏的都是天崩地裂壮士死的惨烈。

而2009 年刚一开始就飞快的流逝着。无所谓好坏，并无什么大事可做，又懒于显出人人疼我，人人需要我的亢奋状态。

我很想在这种艰难的情况下说出些安慰自己的话

比如吃一堑长一智，比如，我的朋友都没有放弃我，比如我的爱情还在坚持着。

只是大脑中，空空白白的。

饭也不肯下功夫去做，

偶尔烤两个点心，也是咬两口便放下了，

不是不好吃，是没有了享受美食的心情。

过年和爸爸讲电话，他说越来越不热闹，只有他和我妈两个人，

然后又说起吃，

他说, 过年包了什么馅儿的饺子，炒了这样那样的菜，还有红烧鱼。。。

我如承欢小女般撒娇的说“不要讲了，不要讲了，我都吃不到，很馋人哇～。”

眼泪却哗哗啦啦的淌下来。

偶尔会默默的祷告，

不知向谁，可能是上帝，或是菩萨，也许。。Santa.

无论如何，我其实一直深深感谢沧天俯瞰我的那双大眼睛，

满意但不理想，那因还有空间可容我做的更好，

所以,

请赐我无穷勇气和力量；无限宽容与善良。

我和翁翁美女不得不说的故事

2008-12-11T16:25:00.000-08:00

好吧，我承认我是标题党。
其实是翁美女要在回国奔老公之前来芝城办些手续，因为办得实在是顺利。事毕我们车把一拐就到ChinaTown 填肚子去了。
翁美女执意要请客，吃完了我说：谢谢你请Lunch。
美女杏眼一翻：谢个P啊～～（重音落在P上）
啊～呀！她还真霹雳，我颤颤巍巍的说：你长得那么漂亮，怎么可以这么不斯文？～
美女杏眼又一翻, 很不屑道：切～耶！（耶音短促有力）
那一刻，我彻底被她打败。
第二天，我们又到一家泰国菜馆填肚子。
我以买什么都没买单气派为由把单子付了。
翁美女很内疚的说：谢谢啦～
不知道她为什么内疚，来芝城我做东势力所当然的嘛，然后气运丹田说：谢个P呀～（P，爆破音）
好在周围没人听懂中文，我们放肆的笑。

唉，这么粗鲁也是因为关系真的好，要不大家都宾着做假淑女呐。
也知道，年龄一轮一轮的涨，身份一层一层的变，我们以后能再肆无忌惮玩闹的机会越来越少。连下一次能再见面的时间都说不准了，充满形式感的可客气是可耻的。
所以我说：下次回国，我吃定你了，我吃到你哭，吃到你主动给我买返程机票。
所以翁美女笑意盈盈语调鉴定的答道：好，我不怕，你来吧。

翁翁一路顺风～

ThanksGiving

2008-11-28T09:11:00.000-08:00

"Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same."
很很抱歉没有一一向各位我最爱的亲们问候，
请恕我低调到无声无息，
实在是因为最近状态不好，不愿把自己negative 的情绪渲染外传，
但是对各位亲们的思念是一天又一天，一点一点都没变，
你们对我有多重要，连你们自己都不知道。
待我重整河山，元气恢复再同亲们一起喝酒吃肉。
抱一抱

神奇的小王（24）

2008-11-19T20:58:00.001-08:00

副标题：厨房里没有虚度的光阴之向吃吃不倦的小王致敬

这是很喧宾夺主的一道菜，其实重点是炒红萝卜，结果红萝卜怎么看怎么像陪衬。自打知道萝卜是脂溶性，也就是说只有和油脂炒/炖营养价值才能体现，便不再生啃红萝卜了，并认为生啃红萝卜的人都好没文化呦 =) 虽然baby carrots 嘎嘣脆，我也要把它给做了才吃。嘿嘿

啤酒鸡翅，炖的。要不是冲着米城那两桶MGD 我也懒的费时费火的炖鸡翅，但是味道实在是太赞了，你以为米城的啤酒是浪得虚名的吗？ NO也！
做法和普通炖鸡翅无异，只是用啤酒取代水，省了料酒就是。不难。

每当我馋到坐立不安的时候，就是鹵猪蹄儿的时候，放冰糖颜色会更鲜亮。我这次不但放了冰糖，并且用可乐代替了水。本来也不为减肥，这点小事不值得顾忌。甩开腮帮。。吃！

清炒白萝卜，哈哈，俺爹地说‘冬吃萝卜夏吃姜，不劳医生开药方’；俺爹地还说了 ‘萝卜配热茶，医生满地爬’。我特爱这种充满人民智慧的顺口溜，并坚定不移的身体力行。白萝卜擦丝，热油翻炒，加盐，撒葱，完事儿。这个颜色酱酱是我把昨天做的鸡翅给和进去了一支。这道菜的成本 $0.7 您信吗？

蒜蓉青菜，实在太简单了，我要说的是这道菜成本$ 0.45。您敢相信吗？我只是想说，做菜其实很简单，也很省钱，关键是比吃TV Dinner 要健康好多。畏惧厨房的姑娘要学着亲近厨房了。林志玲版机器猫，不要四处张望，我就是在说你咧～～
翁翁美女，你已经很久都没有表扬我了～～

神奇的小王（23）

2008-11-19T20:10:00.000-08:00

副标题：厨房里没有虚度的光阴

最近总是饿，便开始不忌口的吃，做饭速度之快，根本来不及写下来。
经济这么萧条的情况下，实在没有比美食更精准的High 点了。

第一次做正宗的意大利菜，味道很不错但是不推荐，因为。。。俺。。。放了一磅半的cheese 在里面。。。还有高能高热的松子也在里面。如果您不像我这般没心没肺，放开胆子不管不顾的吃，或是不像疯子那样发誓在treadmill 上跑到虚脱，请远离。

西红柿炒鸡蛋，这个技术含量太低，我都不好意思写。放在这里是因为，唉～～本来是要做成西红柿鸡蛋面条汤的，结果。。由于惯性还是给炒了，面条无处可去，很多余的挤在旁边。味道竟然很好，日本的芥面，口感有些粗燥也有些别致，吃的时候撒香油葱末是关键。

向四川人民致敬的棒棒鸡，要说吃，我最爱戴四川银。这个棒棒鸡是凉菜中的经典，超简单的制作，超清爽的口味。就是鸡胸肉放姜片煮熟，放入保鲜袋用擀面杖敲散，按自家口味跳入料就好了。我调的是酱油，香油，香辣油，葱末，姜末，蒜末，加醋。顺便提一句，做鸡肉餐，怎样都不要少了姜，不过有厨房经验的应该早就都知道了的吧。

三色彩椒炒鸡丝。唉～～我没骗人，只不过那个桔黄色和黄色比较难分辨，本来是要用绿色的，结果绿色的没减价。不好意思，俺很caculating 的，所有的菜都是控制在$3 之内的，如果做得比买的还贵我还干嘛做它？做法不麻烦但也分个两三部，又要菜谱的我再单独写。

没用完的彩椒炒了个米饭，都说了是味美价廉路线了嘛，不能浪费边角碎料啊。同样技术含量低到没得写，但是我要说的是，您看到背景里的另两道菜了吗？这不过是俺的一顿饭而已，而且还是早饭～～哈～

更多饕餮，未完待续。。。

神奇的小王（22）

2008-11-06T20:25:00.001-08:00

副标题：那蠢蠢欲动的糕点正在飞向你。

本期以小样同学为主题做了一批无糖低油的点心，取而代之的是咖啡牛奶和巧克力。因为伊可劲儿控制啥也不敢吃，誓以妙曼身姿调帅哥，实在让人于心不忍。所以亲爱的，这一批你可着劲儿吃，吃到噎住都8会增重，为了你。。。一滴糖都没放。上面的raisin是拿陈年rum浸过的慢慢品哇。

配合小杨一贯的欧式小资，本期糕点取名café au lait。摆得就是在River Seine 边儿看夕阳爱咋地咋地的范儿。

同时本期另一个中心思想如下：

小杨同学，请你在收到糕点之后用最华丽优美的辞藻来赞美我那个别出心裁创意无限，且 100% environmentally friendly 的点心盒儿。哀家为了它动用了20% 的脑细胞。 =）

Enjoy dear～

Books I have been reading (2)

2008-11-02T11:05:00.000-08:00

Philosophy Made Simple

By Robert Hellenga

很好读的一本书，那个年迈却仍试图寻找生活本质意义的男主人公，卖掉了老宅，不顾儿女反对，毫无经验的独自经营avocado grove。期间通过和一头大象以及女儿未婚夫一家的相处，走出了丧妻之后的不知所措。

三星推荐

Chasing Harry Winston

By Lauren Weisberger

又是 Barns and Nobles 推荐的，唉～～他们怎么可以这么心安理得三番五次的不负责任的推荐烂书呢？

Lauren Weisberger 又怎么可以从Devil Wears Prada, 下降到 Everyone worth knowing, 然后再不遗余力的堕落到Chasing Harry Winston？她的witty humor 都不见了， Chasing Harry Winston 上演的全是纽约自恋老女人谈论无良男人的烂桥段。

半星推荐，想看就看，不看也没什么损失。

The Men I did not Marry

By Lynn Schnurnberger

随手从书架上拿的，惊天名著算不上但至少比比Chasing 好看的不少。

故事的主题是，中年女主人公遭老公抛弃，愤恨之下打算revisit 那些曾经为她痴迷的男朋友们。说实话，这个想法让我迷恋。

三星推荐

The Logic of Life

By Tim Harford

这本书的副标题是 “the Rational Economics of an Irrational World”, 经济低迷的时候大家就开始相互打探什么是经济？虽然走的是“Freaconomics”的路数，但是作者是大名鼎鼎的 Tim Harford ，所以字里行间并不令人失望。尤其喜欢他讲为什么纽约天价房租却依然魅力无限的把你吸引那一章节，几乎解释了我那不可名状的纽约情节。

四星推荐。

Love Today

By Maxim Biller

一个德国作家的书，是一本由多篇短短的爱情小故事篡成的集子。 Opeah上也有推荐。基本上看了前三页就知道不是美国大众读物。几乎没有，时间，地点，以及故事背景，完全是男女主人公思想和行为的片段描写。至于故事是怎么发生，又是怎么结束的，有你天马行空的去想好了。适合浪漫低调闷骚小资文艺女青年午后阅读。

爆爱这本书的封面!

三点五星推荐

Dearest Dorothy: Help, I’ve lost myself

By Charlene Ann Baumbich

正在看，有点搞笑，有点小共鸣。属于我的睡前，如厕读物。哈哈

三星推荐

下期预告

The Assault on Reason

By Al Gore

神奇的小王（21）

2008-11-01T19:49:00.000-07:00

副标题--那些让你念念不忘的味道

最近开始鼓捣一些小点心，房东老太太提供一电动搅拌机，以及无数烤盘。自己制备了些高筋低筋面粉， butter 和糖，烘培的成本还真是比做菜低不少啊。～～

这些都是这一两个星期烤的，我频率之快，房东老太太成了主要吃家。每次做完，我尝一个，加加减减创新一下，又一批。房东老太太大爱～～吃的很欢喜。带出去party 也倍儿有面子。可这些都不是我做点心的初衷。

我是跟着祖父母长大的，奶奶有个点心匣子（唐山话），里面总是有各式各样的点心。我乖的时候奶奶就会从把那个漂亮的点心匣子亮在我眼前，让我挑一块。这一招让我这个喜爱上房揭瓦，喜欢涤荡一切的玩虐，可以安静的坐在小板凳上画上几个小时的画儿。

后来在北京的时候，每次回家都会搭公车到稻香村挑几样色香味俱全的糕点给奶奶带回去。来美国以后每次见到party上的pastries 都忍不住评论 ‘甜得粘牙啊’‘硬成这样怎么嚼啊’‘净是糖还有别的吗？’完全是我奶奶的标准。后来奶奶过世了，打那儿以后我就改只吃cheese cake 了。

前一段，无意间在网上看到了做果酱小酥饼的帖子，心里的某个角落便被蛰到了。

其实，我们怀念的从来都不是食物，而是那个时候的生活和回忆。

就像我奶奶的点心匣子，就像娜娜的那块哈蜜瓜水晶月饼，就像圆脸阿姨买的凉皮儿。对食物的追忆其实是个无比伤感的过程。因为那时的味觉再也不会重回我们口中，就像旧日的时光无法重回一般。念念不忘成了唯一能做的事情。

草莓派

越梅司康
越梅muffin

果酱千层饼
迷你蛋塔
果酱小苏饼

果酱千层酥

PS， recipe 就不写了，我很少measure 几克糖，几克盐，烘培，做饭都是靠感觉，感觉到了味道也便到了。

那些是非过往

2008-10-29T21:13:00.001-07:00

---过剩来自锦上添花————

换季，大半个下午都闷在地下室将夏天的衣服叠好装箱，冬天的棉袄抖开挂上。诧异于自己的衣物竟然如此过剩，夏天已过，一半的衣服都还没有穿过呢。或许是这里的夏天实在过的太快，嗖儿的一下，树叶全都黄了。或许是我买的太多，明明知道什么多不缺，却又忍不住打着锦上添花的旗号原谅自己，多少银两就这样东流水不复返了。气喘吁吁的对着五六个大箱子发誓，明年夏天以前，我一片儿衣服都不再买了，我，保，证。

——无比意外的分割线———

收理衣物的同时，在旧物堆里找到了个半新的本子，大喜，就缺个能让我写字儿的本儿～翻开一看，密密麻麻的，，日记。不过不是我的，是小姑娘C写给位小男生T的。当年我们三个同一年来到这个陌生的城市，住在同一座楼里，说着同样蹩脚的英文，上着同样似懂非懂的课，有种相依为命的亲近。然而却不知两人竟还有这样那般的纠葛/纠缠。期间各种天崩地裂，撕心裂肺，各种依依不舍，惺惺相惜。直看得我目瞪口呆，旧胶片在脑袋里飞速旋转，依稀记得T 毕恭毕敬的站的我家门外说：丹姐，还有泡面吗？记得C 总是穿很短的裙子，在家做饭都踩高跟鞋。记得有次T看流星花园里道明寺对两个女朋友都爱意无限时，抱着瓶啤酒无限惆怅的对我说：换作我都搞不定。我自是十分的不屑：这种烂桥段若是真发生在生活中定然也没什么好下场。 T对我大声：你，好，狠。。嗯～现在才明白当时他反映为什么那么激烈。

然后的时间就悄无声息的流过，毕业之后我们个分了东西，其实是T去了东，C去了西，我留下来读MS。不知他们两个是否还有联系，是否还会记起当年的痴。只是，他们的那份生涩让我感动，或许正是那些不肯说出来的秘密真实的记录着我们的成长。

最后看了一下落款年月， 2003.

——无比伤感的一句话——

时间会磨平一切，如果它存在，它就干枯；如果它流动，它就流走；如果它生长，他就慢慢凋谢。

——我的成长来自对食物的热爱——

明天再表啦～

Sorry, my brain is currently not available

2008-10-22T19:58:00.000-07:00

C: why did not you answer my call?

I: oh, I left my car in my cell.

O: Thanks for dinner.

I: you’re welcome; it is a very rest nictaurant.

I said : "WHAT?~"

2008-10-22T17:41:00.000-07:00

COME HERE TO PLAY : http://www.photofunia.com/

神奇的小王

2008-10-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

副标题：追求的就是那无中生有的精神

肚子很空，冰箱也很空，每每此时，便有一股革命精神涌出。
空则变，变则通，通则有。
对不起啊，梁启超前辈，改了您俩儿字儿，咱们的革命方向不同，但是我领会了您的要领。
跑题，言归正传。

那斯巴丐涕还是机器猫HY小姐回国前，清理门户给我留下的。煮了！
房东老太太，友情赠送了袋色拉；又很大方的把上次趴屉剩下的白蘑菇给我了，虽然有点点黑边边，但真的不妨大碍，
上头那个红红的东西叫beets 说实话偶8晓得系什么啦，不过甜甜脆脆有点像荸荠。切了！
突然又想起，前两天鹵了鸡臻（zhen字儿是这么些的末？）加点儿鸡汤和斯巴丐涕拌在一起，不是我懒，是上上上个星期就已经把机器猫送的斯巴丐涕酱给消灭了。
然后就把这些依次落起来。
竟。然。发。现。效。果。十。分。满。堂。彩～～～

只是想证明一下，真的很好吃，并顺便推荐一下哀家钟爱的，屡战不败的 sesame and ginger salad dressing. 哀家几乎试遍了市场上的所有品牌，口味不分伯仲，列为尽可放心购买。
还有就是，古之人不于欺人也～～

乐子是要不断找的

2008-10-17T23:05:00.000-07:00

所以我们就。。。

上图左边的酒友，竟然是我的瑜伽老师。

哀家的手艺，周边的蛋塔虽然卖相狰狞但是味道鲜美。
好评如潮后，居然有人要打包哀家的点心，
极大的满足了我那颗小小的虚荣心。

乐子都是自己找的

2008-10-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

如题，
无论怎样，心花不能停止怒放！

Learn To Be Lonely
From: Phantom of the Opera
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You've always known your heart was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You've always known your heart was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived life can be loved alone

吐吐就习惯了

2008-10-11T23:11:00.000-07:00

在网上看到有人闲来无事，给一些古人也起了外国名儿，
如下——

孔子，名仲尼——Johnny
曹操，字孟德——McDonald
杜甫，字子美——Jimmy
韩愈，号昌黎——Charlie
狄仁杰——Roger
苏轼——Susan
王安石，字介甫——Jeff
唐寅——Tony
孙中山，字逸仙——Eason
蒋中正，字介石——Jason
马英九——Angel
韩乔生——Johnson

哀家险些笑喷，想来中国人起个洋名真的是件很叽歪的事，若不是自个儿的中文名飘洋过海后就变了性，不是一般的误导不知情的美国人民，定是不会给自己来个洋的。不过入乡随俗，总是好过被人误认为transexual. 每被问起为什么用Ivy，我都会很老实的回答， ‘好拼’。没骗人，我到现在都觉得 'Elizabeth' 这个名字很挑战。

Pending

2008-10-09T21:02:00.000-07:00

Subtitle: It is all about gazing

Getting a B-day gift for D2 was a perplexing question to me. I am glad this rambling painting I did served the b-day-gift purpose.

Ivy: You know you are just a baby, you never gonna grow up.
D2: Yeah...that is why every girl calls me 'Hey Baby~'

Girl Singing in the Wreckage

It's my primary instinct to protect the child
Girl singing in the wreckage
My dress is torn, my hair is wild
Girl singing in the wreckage

My first kiss, my early boyfriend
Girl singing in the wreckage
Wet weekends, new years eve parties
Girl singing in the wreckage

Chorus:
Hour after hour after hour (x2)

My 18th birthday, I'll die of boredom
Girl singing in the wreckage
My private world is smashed right open
Girl singing in the wreckage

My 1st trip, my expectations
I had a dream that it would end like this
No destiny, No destination
You hit the ground and then it stops

CHORUS

I miss my hometown, it's nothing special
Call my parents let them know I've arrived
My primary instinct is to protect the child
Send the postcard from the airport

无话可说

2008-10-01T21:01:00.001-07:00

Subtitle: 图片兴博（1）

I draw this one couple of weeks ago. I have been very moody lately, and do not feel like expressing myself in words.
Thanks dear Janet called me last week, it is always so nice to hear from you. Hey you know I was not going to be a recluse, I was on the brink of cerebral palsy, haahaha

The Lovers Are Losing
Keane

I dreamed I was drowning
In the river Thames
I dreamed I had nothing at all
Nothing but my own skin

Slipped away from your open hands
Into the river
Saw your face looking back at me
I saw my past and I saw my future

You take the pieces of the dreams that you have
Cause you don't like the way they seem to be going
You cut them up and spread them out on the floor
You're full of hope as you begin rearranging
Put it all back together
But anyway you look at things and try
The lovers are losing

I dreamed I was watching
The young lover's dance
I reached out to touch your hand
But I was watching from a distance

We cling to love like a skidding car
Clinched to the corner
I try to hold on to what we are
The more I squeeze the quicker we all are

You take the pieces of the dreams that you have
Cause you don't like the way they seem to be going
You cut them up and spread them out on the floor
You're full of hope as you begin rearranging
Put it all back together
But anyway you look at things and try
The lovers are losing

I dreamed I had nothing at all (nothing at all)
I dreamed I had nothing at all

You take the pieces of the dreams that you had
Cause you don't like the way they seem to be going
You cut them up and spread them out on the floor
You're full of hope as you begin rearranging
Put it all back together
But in the final reckoning
We're trying
The lovers are losing

Old Man in Sorrow

2008-09-24T13:09:00.000-07:00

Subtitle : life is a losing game:

Of course, the idea of this pencil sketch is not my original.
Vicent Van Gogh sketched it in Nov 1882. It was half meter high and 1/3 meter wide, quite large indeed. In May 1890 Van Gogh painted even larger version of 'old man in sorrow' which almost doubled that black chalk sketch’s size (81cmx65cm). And the oil paint version of 'old man in sorrow' was the one with greater renown.
Ok, Van Gogh did a better job than me, and I guess that is quite alright =D

Books I have been reading lately (1)

2008-09-16T11:44:00.001-07:00

--Peony In Love

哀家一直都judge a book by cover的，借这本书也无非是因为外皮闷骚，见它在Barns and Nobles 的架子上也很显眼，心想没准会有情节。

到目前为止，看完了三分之二，老子就已经被雷的外焦里嫩了。

故事讲的是明末清初富家女Peony 的感情经历，八过，整个故事斯拉斯拉地是讲给非中国人听的。说什么，不管礼教多么繁杂，’there are a lot of hugs and kisses in the house’ 同学们啊~~明末清初啊~~hugs and kisses 啊~~ 靠普吗？至于像‘kiss on the forehead’之类的细节，这里就不提了，更雷的是女主人公因为博学多才，念了世界名著‘牡丹亭’又偶遇风流倜傥一小生，终日怀想，相思成疾，挂掉了。在阴间与祖母重逢，共同回顾她父母之爱情故事，又在阴间看到风流小生娶了自己生前姐妹。人神公愤以后决定鬼俯身到姐妹身上与小生重逢。。。。

好啦好啦，到此为止，整个儿揍是西厢记，牡丹亭，红楼梦，外代人鬼情未了，揉圆了向我砸来。事已至此，我决定大义凛然的看完它，不过不鼓励列位看官啦，明知会被雷，还是退退退吧。

下期预告 ‘eat pray and love’

神奇的小王（20）

2008-08-30T19:59:00.000-07:00

副标题：三文鱼与树

起个这么文艺的名字完全是因为介个造型得来全不费功夫。
原本是想把切成条的三文鱼摆成朵花儿，日本芥末做叶子，结果接了个电话，回来小花儿就长成大树啦~
心得一二三：
1）三文鱼要切得薄
2）日本芥末要新鲜
3）表做得太多，鱼要现买现做现吃，放不新鲜就没意思了。

宏营语录

2008-08-12T21:58:00.000-07:00

宏营小朋友有着彪悍的小宇宙，和令人抓狂的思维体系。
这个北大毕业的闺秀，说起话来又嗲又卡通，基本上揍是个林志玲版的机器猫。
别的无须赘言，列为看官可劲儿联想揍是了。

1）在TjMaxx里，场景一
Ivy: 我要去试衣间里试这些衣服，你要不要也拿些一起去试啊？
HY: 不要，反正我又不会买的。
Ivy: 我有说让你买吗？试着玩儿呗，有点娱乐精神好不好~
HY: … 好吧， 我就是来陪你娱乐的。
（奉献精神）

2）TjMaxx，试衣间，场景二
HY: 你真的没胸哎，都是空的。
Ivy: 嗯，我就想把腿上的肉割下5磅贴在胸上。
HY: 嗯，我也想割下5磅，贴。。。嗯。。扔掉好了。
（一语双关）

3）TjMaxx, 试衣间，场景三
Ivy: 怎么衣服都这么大呀？
HY: 你太瘦了。
Ivy: 人人都想瘦，为什么作为一个减肥成功人士我却买不到衣服穿.
HY: 你有减肥吗？
Ivy: 没有，我属于增肥失败人士。
（事物的两面性）

4）电话上：
Ivy: 你就要回国了，会有很长时间见不到你，现在给你三分钟时间，对我诉衷肠。
HY: 什么是诉衷肠呀阿阿~
Ivy: 就是说我的好听话，。。一，二，三，。。开始~！~
HY: 。。。你好看，
Ivy: 嗯，
HY：你要给我做饭。
Ivy: 嗯？
HY: 你要带我买菜，你要给我打电话，还要给我写email…
Ivy: 打住！衷肠不是这样诉的好不好~~
(注水衷肠)

5）还是电话上
Ivy: 猪，
HY : 猪，
Ivy: 我是珍珠的zhu
HY: 那我也是珍珠的zhu
Ivy: 你是存钱罐儿的猪，背后有眼儿，肚上有盖儿，啊哈哈~~
HY: 讨厌~
（欺负了邻家小妹）

6）又是电话上
HY: 大头丹
Ivy: 无头营
（开诚布公）

7）一张照片引发的一道数学题

照片题名为，
“Ivy 和她的宠物等于 HY 和她的宠物”，
但是ivy 不等于 HY
为什么呢？
因为Ivy 和HY 互为宠物，

(不过最近一直都是她在对我投放食物啦 ~_~)

没对

2008-08-08T20:11:00.000-07:00

怎么会这样？一桩接一桩。　
不踏实，永久焦虑，　
哪里没对
Ｍｙ　ｌｉｆｅ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｗｒｏｎｇ．
Ｉ　ａｍ　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｂａｃｋ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｐｌａｎｅｔ．．
Ｂｙｅ　ｅａｒｔｈ．．
．．
．．
．．
ｉｆ　Ｉ　ｃａｎ．

第一口蛋糕的滋味，

2008-07-27T21:52:00.000-07:00

做王菲是什么感觉啊~~

一片空白

2008-07-03T22:12:00.000-07:00

忙乱，
一天一天，在东岸三天，在西岸三天，需要酒精来保证睡眠。
今天终于飞回芝加哥，已是凌晨，开车到公司，打开电脑，大上司两封邮件躺在眼前。
回了，说：咱们 system failure，您急也没有P用。当然我的语气很婉转，并加上了节日快乐之类的filling words。

国庆长假，有场婚礼要参加，伴娘们要穿新娘指定的短旗袍，娘类~ 哀家很难走传统这条路线，那身短旗袍若不被我演绎成夜店风尘女，就是大堂服务生，很大程度上，取决于配什么鞋子。

其实有点害怕参加婚礼，那份喧闹，喜庆，甜蜜与我当下那种挥之不去的挫败感不符。

很偶尔的，会怀念那个温暖的拥抱，然后后知后觉的抽噎一场，再然后便神情麻木的从一场忙乱投入到另一场忙乱中去。

Is Life Funny?

2008-06-05T05:31:00.001-07:00

It is always pretty, from all angles. Maddly in love with it, yet I have not role but a traveller.

Like her

2008-05-20T20:56:00.001-07:00

http://www.myspace.com/duffymyspace

seven colors

2008-05-03T09:18:00.000-07:00

Drew it for now reason.

_____cut and copy___kinda funny___

70后、80后、90后的离奇区别

1、
70后：工作狂基本上都是70后的。
80后：而我们，拒绝加班！
90后：拒绝上班！
2、
70后：他们喜欢穿七匹狼或者猛龙牌子的衣服。
80后：我们喜欢G-Star之类的。
90后：乞丐服，越花越好,越破越好..一个洞时尚，两个洞潮流，三个洞个性...
3、
70后：他们唱k的时候只会乱吼──例如2002年的第一场雪，然后就拼命拉着你喝酒，不让你唱。
80后：Mic霸一般是我们。
90后：我们不止会唱，还会跳！
4、
70后：他们的话题除了工作就是股票。
80后：我们的话题更多，有英超、魔兽……
90后：QQ等级，QQ秀...
5、
70后：他们如果有笔记本，会喜欢到公众场合用。
80后：我们才不会背那么重的东西在身上。
90后：只要苹果笔记本，而且不止一台...
6、
70后：他们喜欢喝红酒，一般是长城红酒。
80后：我们要么不喝酒，要么就喝啤酒。
90后：韩国果汁，日本汽水...
7、
70后：他们无论任何时候，看到有站着的领导，都会马上给领导让座。
80后：我们崇尚上下级平等。
90后：天上地下，唯我独尊！
8、
70后：他们娶老婆的时候想娶处女。
80后：我们觉得无所谓，只要相互感情好就可以了。
90后：结婚需要感情吗？..需要结婚吗？..
9、
70后：他们觉得每个日本人、美国人、台湾人都想攻打中国。
80后：我们喜欢日本的连续剧、台湾的综艺节目、美国的大片。
90后：我要去日本，因为我是日系MM...
10、
70后：他们希望中国用核弹把上面三个国家(地区)都灭了。
80后：我们希望和平。
90后：和我无关！打仗衣服会降价吗？那就打呗~~
11、
70后：他们对服务员态度恶劣，或者言语上调戏女服务员。
80后：我们只在点菜和结帐时会跟服务员说话。
90后：从不和waitress说话，只会背后讨论她的衣服很土...
12、
70后：他们有存款。
80后：我们负债。
90后：我们有老爸！
13、
70后：他们会把房子买在番禺或者花都，然后每天早上花一个多小时乘车去上班。
80后：我们喜欢在公司附近租房子，每天骑车或走路去上班，就为了早上多睡一会。
90后：我们住哪里都可以，只要BF喜欢...
14、
70后：他们结交有背景有地位的人。
80后：我们结交志趣相投的人。
90后：我们结交满身文身的帅哥！
15、
70后：他们周末约客户去吃饭。
80后：我们周末约同学去踢球。
90后：一个礼拜7天周末，想做什么做什么！
16、
70后：他们喝酒时喜欢跟别人干杯
80后：我们能喝多少喝多少，喝不下了，怎么也不肯再喝
90后：我不是随便喝酒的人，我随便喝起酒来不是人～
17、
70后：他们的家进门要脱鞋。
80后：我们家进门不用脱鞋。
90后：我们上床睡觉都不脱鞋！
18、
70后：他们五一、国庆去旅游，然后会在各个景点门口拍下很多V字手势的照片。
80后：我们五一、国庆在家睡觉，或者约朋友去唱k，去旅游，我们只会拍景色。
90后：我们天天是五一，国庆....取消五一没什么关系...
19、
70后：吃饭时，他们喜欢坐在老板旁边
80后：我们最好别坐在老板旁边，那才无拘无束
90后　：我是老板！
20、
70后：他们跟陌生人在一起的时候喜欢找话题说。
80后：我们不太搭理陌生人，故意找话题不累么？
90后：你谁阿，穿这么土，死开～帅哥，交个朋友好嘛？～～

A day just gone by

2008-04-27T22:54:00.000-07:00

9:30am woke up. I barely wake up this late, even on weekends. But since the weather just getting warm that my apartment building finally stopped the bake-you-as-a-potato-heater, yet still not too warm to stay in bed. So with this kind of guilty pleasure, I got up 2 hours late than usual.

9:30 -11:00am breakfast, Okay, it was a brunch, coz I woke up so late. My new innovation of meat + noodle + raw veggies + salad dressing + pan fired egg. These were all I have in my refrigerator, and it was so damn good.

11:00 – 12:00pm Apartment hunting … in the same building. I was thinking go somewhere rather than downtown, since it is so not safe, we just got another safety alert and parking is bad too. But it is really hard to find a place like this where the rent is reasonable, includes everything even electricity, and the hard wood floor is crucial. Why do I have to move? C and I are both graduating this summer, our roommate-ship is coming to an end. A little sad but it is ok, she is great girl but I would love to have a place I can totally in charge of the life-quality-control, meaning no over night garbage, no dirty dishes in the sink, no spaghetti sauce on the floor. Anyhow, I found a studio on fifth floor, and I am signing the lease on Monday.

12:00 – 2:00pm library, checked my email…sigh~~

Dr K’s data has been sitting on my desk for 6 weeks now. I figured that if he can wait for 6 weeks, maybe he will be ok with waiting another week. So I decided go shopping instead of data mining. It is so easy to tell which one is more fun.

2:00-5:00pm Shopping in Grand Avenue. After the gas price has soared to $3.8/G I am making most of my trip by feet now. Luckily it is not too far. I got a Kodak digital camera for NaNa’s wedding from the mall. 8 mega pixels, big lcd screen, really easy to use just press the biggest button on the top and that will be all. I did not consult anyone before I made this purchase, as a high-tech idiot I usually do, coz, heck, all those electronics are looking pretty good to me. Anyhow, since Nana is not much high-tech than me I hope this one would work, if not I also have a red envelop loaded with cash, so she can just get whatever she likes. Thoughtful huh? I know.

I also went to public library on my way back. Check out a movie called ‘Prime’, never heard of it, but I do like Meryl Streep so up to give it a try. Checked out a book ‘About Alice’, also never heard of it, I just like the simple clean cover. That is all.

5:00-6:30pm dinner, eat whatever visible and eatable in kitchen.

6:30-9:30pm watch this movie in my bed with nuts and three bottles of beer. Do not ask me why, it just happened this way. It was a love story but not that kind of story you want watch again. Still, pretty good, with appreciation of each other’s existence the man and woman in this movie still decided not being together at the end, a little anti-Hollywood, yet understandable.

After 9:30 pm, read ‘About Alice’ and thinking maybe I should record my day. Maybe I write the book review after I done with it. But to be honest, it is really rare I can finish a book before its returning date, especially, I have another two books on hand already. Is that count as one of my greedy nature evidences?

神奇的小王（17）

2008-04-26T12:24:00.000-07:00

副标题：攻占厨房最后一个死角

一直都很爱吃鱼，却很少做，第一是实验成本要比瓜果蔬菜高，二是那时做饭都是给d2吃，他总是会被刺卡到。

前段时间在中国店看到有鲜鱼，便心血来潮冲了头顶，拎了一条。

到家就傻眼了，这么整的一条，没破肚还带着麟。草草草心中暗骂三声，努力回忆着娘亲和奶奶都是怎么整的，结果年代太久远了，啥也想不起来了。自个儿来吧。

鱼鳞是拿steak knife 刮得，比想象中容易，揪着鱼尾巴往外刷刷刷，小C 饶有兴趣的凑过来，像看西洋景似的嚷 ‘OMG never seen fish this way～’然后又像个观光客般拿着相机狂照，然后就有以下这组照片。

刮鳞，破肚，剪鳍，扣鳃，掏内脏，哇～居然是条mom fish，好多鱼籽，罪过罪过。也掏出来，蒸了，和香辣菜炒在一起。高脂肪高蛋白，吃吧～

锅放油，烧热，放鱼，两边煎黄。转大锅，加水，加葱姜，加料酒一点点。到此为止一切顺利，创意大发，又加了豆腐，红萝卜，奶油玉米。娃哈哈，色香味，相当不错。

不过哀家恶习已深，没人陪就不肯吃饭。所以做好以后，分了宏莹1/3，自己喝了1/3, 倒掉了剩下的1/3。这条鱼的使命就这样完成了。还有这已是很久以前做了，没有正经儿做饭已经好多月 =（

In Celebration of Love

2008-04-25T08:25:00.000-07:00

This is for HongYing and her honey N, just think they are kinda cute together.

How long we have not use that 'L' word?

Face . Book

2008-04-23T21:59:00.000-07:00

You know there is this thing called facebook, which I barely use but if somebody writes something on my wall or sent me a message I will check it. So I checked it yesterday, and one more click I was on d2’s page. I was happily surprised by several pic of him linked from others. I was surprised because d2 is such a low key person that he won’t put his pictures online by himself, but finally there are some to see. I was happy because he looked pretty good in those b-day party pictures; he even had a hair cut and shaved.
And that is that, until second day I got hit by this thought that who is d2? He was the person I know everything of. I use to know what did he do everyday, who did he see, what funny things happened yaali yaali yaala. I use to even know what he ate, what he was wearing inside out, how many cigarettes he smoked a day ….. But now, I can only make some random assumptions guessing how his life looks like. Who is he? He was the person I wanted to marry to so badly, suddenly he is stranger again.
After finished the big report for my class today, I could not get rid of this picture hanging in my mind. So I drew it down. I actually emailed d2 my drawing and asked if he could put on his facebook as ID pic, although it won’t really matter a thing for either of us, I guess. I was amazed by the strong color contrast after I was done, red is my color and black is d2’s favorite. I did not do it on purpose; the color combination came out naturally. It was not a hard drawing at all, but most struggling one I must say, since my hands were shaking so bad when I was drawing it that I had to take a few breaks in order to finish.

My . Face

I am still afraid of being old, yet I know it comes sooner or later. So I got this idea that if I can not fight for it, I am going to record it. I created a new photo album named ‘daily’, meaning I am going to take a pictures of myself each day and upload them under that album. So a year later I will have at least 365 or more pictures and by go though them I can find out what day on where I had which wrinkle. Haha , is this something sounds crazy and fun?! It already started.

会不同

2008-04-18T18:12:00.001-07:00

时间太快，日子太慢。

这段时间，心情很差，不想见人，也懒得说话。

娜娜的婚礼在下个月的27号。

我说，我们23年的交情，为了ta你就把我给甩啦。

娜娜说，没啥，我跟了咱爸咱妈都29年啦，为了ta我把他们俩儿都甩啦。

我们的一生，都在寻找安全感，

有人走一站，有人走一生

每日都很忙，却总是很沮丧。

不肯见到真实的自己，便悄无声息的，杂碎了所有的镜子。

很害怕，越来越怕，

请ni，不要，正式，和我，

说，再见。

巴黎人民听着

2008-04-17T15:35:00.000-07:00

别犯贱

ps，比较后知后觉，刚在YouTube上看了video, 丫们可真叫个欠揍！～

TAKE A BOW

2008-03-27T01:20:00.001-07:00

My tasks piled up on my desk,
and to do list is getting longer and longer,
yet I am not functioning at all.
Stay up till four and wake up at five.
I may need sometime get myself back,
maybe couple of days, weeks, or months
maybe just dissolve in the air.
Take a bow, kiss kiss, I will always love you.

Where she goes? (2)

2008-03-24T13:45:00.000-07:00

a fantasy land which she knows not exists.

I don't understand what you mean,
If i am not in your heart,it is enough if you said so.
You don't have to conceal what's in your heart,
because I know, it was not me...

where she goes?

2008-03-22T22:31:00.001-07:00

to find a doggie bigger than her...

I had this day too many times already~~

2008-03-16T11:21:00.001-07:00

The doggie says: "I hate to be older than yesterday~"

I wish you all the wishes you wished me, every day..

Received (1)

2008-03-13T13:13:00.000-07:00

A Tiffany
Two broken hearts..

the edge of sanity

2008-03-11T20:37:00.001-07:00

UPS screwed up my package by telling me the wrong address in the first place and wrong costumer service time when I called hours later. I was fiercely mad after seeing the damn door was closed behind UPS yellow brown sign, and about to call back and yell over the phone about their terrible customer services. However, I managed hang up the phone before my call was transferred to a representative. I mean, what is the use of doing this? Whoever picked the phone has nothing to do with whoever provided me the wrong information. Why am I getting mad or upset so easily lately? I always feel like throw things around and concentration is no longer possible for me. Am I on the edge of my sanity?

please do not stop the talk (4)

2008-03-07T23:15:00.000-08:00

Subtitle: girls late night talk with C

C: Men suck!! right roomie?
I: No... they are not..if they really love you.

Guilty pleasure

2008-03-07T14:12:00.000-08:00

Had 14 pieces of chocolate and a cup of green tea latte at work.
I am like... totally sugar high right now.
Going to swim with C in an hour, we are going to play dolphin and sea turtle in the pool. Weeee~

Q and A

2008-03-07T13:59:00.001-08:00

Q2: Is Einstein atheist?
A: NO
Q2: Is Einstein a believer?
A: Not really

“...science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind … a legitimate conflict between science and religion cannot exist."
"neither the rule of human nor Divine Will exists as an independent cause of natural events.” (Einstein 1940, pp. 605–607)
In addition to his great achievements, his wisdom also present in his controversial personalities. For someone who is truly intelligence, (differ from doing well in school, I mean, come on, as long as someone holds one quality-- ‘hard study’ or ‘study hard’ school is pretty much set.) who is able to see things deeper, wider than others, he has to be controversial. As long as the whole universe is not a barren black and white planet, ‘trade off’ and ‘it depends’ would play a significant roles here. As for religions, who can really show the evidence of the existence of GOD, and who really dare to say that there is no GOD at all?
Here, it reminds me that only those extremely single minded people will judge surroundings by one standard, if not good then bad, which I think is totally cross the common sense line and reached the bottom of stupidity. However, those kind of people are worthless as a dust, no need to mention anyways.

Einstein Says:

2008-03-05T15:55:00.000-08:00

"I never think of the future. It comes soon enough."

School News -- Public Safety Alert

2008-03-05T13:32:00.000-08:00

Public Safety Alert
Two separate robberies were reported to the Milwaukee Police Department shortly after 3 a.m. on Wednesday, March 5. The first robbery occurred within the 500 block of North 18th Street at approximately 2:55 a.m.; the second robbery occurred within the 600 block of North 17th Street at approximately 3:01 a.m. In both incidents, which appear to be related, two suspects in a dark- colored Jeep Grand Cherokee drove up to the victims, who are both Marquette students; one suspect displayed a weapon and demanded personal property. During the first incident, the victim told the suspect she did not have any money. During the second incident, the suspect obtained personal property from the victim. After the second incident, the suspects fled the area in the Jeep. The Department of Public Safety and the Milwaukee Police Department were contacted and immediately responded to both incidents. Neither victim was physically injured.
The suspects in both incidents are described as:
Suspect 1: Black male, approximately 25 years of age, 5'9”, thin to medium build, wearing a black knit hat, a black-hooded sweatshirt and black puffy jacket.
Suspect 2: Black male, no further description available
The vehicle is described as an early to mid 2000's, dark grey, Jeep Grand Cherokee SUV.
Anyone having information about this incident is encouraged to contact the Milwaukee Police Department at 414-935-7360 or Marquette Department of Public Safety at 414-288-6800.
Public Safety strongly recommends that students use LIMO services if traveling at night, in addition to following other personal safety measures, such as:
Immediately report all crime to Public Safety.
Be aware of your surroundings and refrain from traveling alone.
Use the LIMO vans and Student Safety Patrol escorts.
Keep exterior doors locked at all times.
Report to Public Safety suspicious people or vehicles traveling in your neighborhood.
Quickly walk or run away from approaching strangers raising your suspicions. Go to a residence hall, open business or the Public Safety office.
Familiarize yourself with the location of Blue Light Phones. Over 100 phones, providing a direct link to Public Safety, are located on campus and in the off-campus neighborhood.
Please contact the Department of Public Safety at 288-6800 with any questions or concerns.

Commons: the suspect describe is quite useless, I think. I won’t be surprised if someone describes a black rap star this way. And... where is "500 block of North 18th Street " ? Can they possibly talk anything clear?

Please do not stop the talk (3)

2008-03-04T10:40:00.000-08:00

Subtitle : talking about rent with my roommate C
C : I love you roomie...up to 320 (dallors) a month.
I : I love you too... up to 280 (dallors) a month.
C: See, I love you more than you love me.
I : See, you are less loveable than me :P
(C was being angery yet accepted the fact, ha)

Please do not stop the talk (2)

2008-03-02T21:03:00.000-08:00

Subtitle: with AL, ex-boyfriend, recent broke up.

AL : “You over estimate my family; under estimate me and under estimate yourself.”

Ivy: “Wow, I'm really not a good analyst I guess. Maybe I should just be a cashier…swipe credit cards for people. ”

Ivy: “I think I am jealous your iPhone”

AL: “en… I had a name for her…”

Ivy: “It is SHE!?... no wonder I am jealous.”

“I am together kinda girl, I like to do everything together. I like go to work together and get off together; I like to clean the house together and brush teeth together; I even like to dump garbage together.”

--Ivy

“Do not be depressed, be yourself. And whatever you do, I will always be here for you.”

--AL

Ivy: “Are you gonna give me my money back?”

AL : “It depends, that is a penalty.”

Ivy: “That is a loan.”

AL: “Do you want me to say something to make you feel better?”

Ivy : “OK…”

(I can not appreciate enough to have him in my life, regardless the consequences are. And I can only hope for the best.)

Please do not stop the talk (1)

2008-03-02T21:02:00.000-08:00

Subtitle: with Cassandra, roommate for 4 years.

I was sorting all the plastic containers in the kitchen, while C was taking her late dinner. I really hate having different shapes and sizes containers on the same shelf and all pile up in a chaos fashion. I said it in a commandable tone, more like to myself, but I said it out loud. “from now on, we only use round shape containers ok?.... all those squared ones stored in that shelf (point the one behind our microwave) …do not use them unless it is absolutely emergency…OK?! ”

C raised up her head and looked at me innocently said: “I am scared… you are so neat, if I live alone…I bet my apt would as messy as a pigpen .”

(I was released by knowing her scariness has nothing to do with my bossiness, better yet, she appreciated.)

…..

Not quite sure what did I say, but definitely something purposely to mocking C

She faked an anger and said: “you made an assumption and I rejected it!”

“So, you just committed a type I error!” I replied immediately.

Then we both bursted into laughter

C: “how nerdy are we?”

I : “Very, at least.”

...

C: “According to you, English is a whore, we should just rape it, right? ”

(I totally forgot when did I made that joke, but must be the time I mispronounced some English words. Well ... as long as she enjoys it. )

One color rules them all~

2008-02-27T13:36:00.000-08:00

Confused

2008-02-26T20:36:00.000-08:00

仍然一个人
仍然没有家
仍然不知还要这样过多久

Books I have been reading lately

2008-02-24T21:51:00.001-08:00

Subtitle: still trying to learn about myself and others.

The Dewey Color System for Relationships

You: Your endearing puppy-dog eyes and tone of voice express real concern. People are magnetically drawn to you. Truly listening to others is your greatest power, and it makes you a natural in relationships. You need to feel what your partner feels – her joy and pain. Shared emotions become treasured justifications that you two exist as one. Your desire to live the romantic dream is sexy. (pg 61)

What to do with you: What he wants is two-way open communication. …. Listen is all you have to do. …If you offer advice, know that he heard you – even though his initial lack of response can make you feel that he didn’t. It just takes him longer to process information about his feelings. (pg 62)

Commons: OMG

Why Can’t You Shut Up?

A every good book. I started years ago and never got chance to finish.

I am trying to finish it this time.

神奇的小王（16）

2008-02-23T09:33:00.000-08:00

Subtitle : From Beef to Pork

Since I was so successful with the steak I made weeks ago, I believe I can just get pork to a higher level. It is still very very easy and only takes about 10 to 15 min.
all you need are pork, (1/2 inch thick seems pretty good, it is easy to cook and fast for the flavor to get in the meat) salt, steak spice, soy souce, cumin (孜然 in Chinese).

Dash salt and steak spices on the pork, both side if you like stronger taste.
Note: maybe you want put less salt than how you do on beef, coz we gonna add soy souce later, and you do not want your pork get too salty to eat then.

Spray oil on the bottom of your cooking pan,
lay your pork in it.
add soy souce, wait for 3 min and flip the pork over and add some more soy souce on the other side, stay for another 3 min.
(turn your stove power to high )

Ready to eat.
Dash cumin for an exotic flavor.
I guess you will enjoy it as much as beef.

J Lo

2008-02-22T16:41:00.000-08:00

She had it all.

新年。回放

2008-02-19T18:22:00.000-08:00

除了吃，我们不需要别的理想。
补充一下，一排姑娘，口水流尽，一道菜都没做，全靠那位边边上默默无闻的先生啊～

宇宙超级无敌嗡嗡大美女，加上，只要人人都奉献两只胳膊一条腿。
另外。。丝袜诱惑。。很有必要。。

——意外惊喜的分割线————

谢谢jiajia的甜蜜爱心创意无限精彩多多的新年大礼包。
照片周末裱一下挂上，狗狗研究了一下，还蛮复杂，周末组织一下，team work，完成它。

亲们，你们都是最可耐的人，
我谨代表倪萍阿姨，倪萍阿姨代表全国人民，
波～～一个

神奇的小王（15）

2008-02-18T12:31:00.001-08:00

Subtitle: Cauliflower

Since it would be another big snow very soon, I figured that it might be a better idea to stock my refrigerator now and no going gorcery for a week or two to avoid driving on the snow. Then again, I hate to leave food in teh refrige forever. So once I have something, I cook it right a way. So here we go.
Step 1
Wash cauliflower, cut or break it into pieces. It won't matter much if it is little bit bigger or smaller. In my theory, they all look the same in your stomach.

Step 2
spread vegi oil, I also cut half inch butter and put in with oil. It just for a richer flavor (Optional, but recommended)
chopped onion, stir for ...like 15 sec and put cauliflowers in

Step 3
dump cauliflowers, add 1/2 cup of chick broth, if you do not have chick broth just add water. (actually, authentic chick broth is quick easy to make, I will put the process on once I do my grocery again.)
leave it simmering for a few min (if you want your cauliflower softer then leave it longer, otherwise shorter. Chef makes the decision.)

Step 4
When it is almost done, add salt.
Just for the fun of it add whatever you would like to, I spread several salted peanuts and cooked shrimp.
Simmering for another one min.

Step 5
All ready.
I always to dash some black sesame just for the look. Ok I know just said, they all look the same once they get to your stomach, but sesame is good for you anyways. And put som cilantro is always my add-some-color trick.
Attention: DO NOT forget to drop some sesame oil before eat it. It just taste soooo much better with sesame oil

Note: I just learned that cauliflower is actually has very high nutirional density. It is low in fat, high in dietary fiber folate and vitamin C. It becomes my sencond favorate vegetable next to spinach.

BBS

2008-02-16T22:05:00.001-08:00

Subtitle: Beer Beef Stew

Since I got this ‘never sleeps’ big-apple-disease, I decided to use my extra energy on food.

Step 1

Peal the potato, cut them into big pieces.

Chuck of beef (about 1.5 inches thick), chop into big pieces too.

Step 2

Dump everything into slow cooker, use beer instead of water.

Fill it with BEER till it almost covers the beef.

Turn the power level to high.

Step 3

After a few hours, when the beef is half way ready, dash salt.

I recommend less is better, since you can always add at the end.

Stew in the slow cooker for another a few hours.

I will say step 2+ step 3 =6 hours.

By then the beef stew is actually ready, however, since slow cooker heats food without fire. There are always too much juice and oil left. The following steps are optional but strong recommended.

Spoon out the oil floating on the top. In terms of health it is bad to intake too much oil for human body; in terms of taste.... do I need to say more? So dump those oil if you wish, or save for other cooking if you were as economic as I am.

Anyhow step 4

Remove everything to a big pot, turn the fire power to high. The purpose of doing so is have beef absorb more flavors from the juice as well as to add more salt if it is not salty enough. Keep stewing on the stove for another half hour, or as long as you like it. (But you better check it once in a few min incase beef gets burned)

Step 5

Beautifully done and ready to eat. OK.... I know it does not look too good, for one because my camera is not hi-tech enough to make things better then how they are, two....come on...this is stew...

Tips: I actually have more cooking spices, if you do not know what to use, slice some ginger (about thumb size) and add soy source.

It is all over but the crying

2008-02-15T23:48:00.000-08:00

Still having hard time to go to sleep.
Maybe I have to bring back my mid-night Vodka days.
That is just sad...

too little too late (title has nothing to do with the content below)

2008-02-14T22:57:00.000-08:00

I was just going to group those people who took my class under my gmail account. However, I accidentally hit the ‘sent’ key. Thus over hundreds of my contacts received a blank email from me yesterday.

Anyhow, it turned out to be a pretty interesting study here. Within 24 hours, I received 14 emails asking ‘why is nothing here’ ‘did u forget attachment something?’ ‘how come it is blank’…… on top of those, two people MSNed me right away asking ‘what is up?’ ‘do u know u send a empty email?’ on top of those, 3 people called me over the phone. Add all up, it is 19 out of 145 people replied, meaning, approximately 13.1% of my social circle are care me enough to make the effort to ask about this abnormal behavior.

Is 13.1% a bigger or small number? Is it a question of the higher the number is the better your social life would be? Who knows.

Just want to take the time thank everyone who somehow cared and slightly sorry for the interruption.

I love you all~~

Baking is overrated

2008-02-12T12:56:00.000-08:00

Maybe because it is the time of the month, I feel like to have some junk food. So I got those packages. (I usually make cookies out of scratch, but this time I run out flour and did not want to buy 10 pounds flour just for my sudden impulsive junk food desire.)

Anyhow, I never had those before, but I figured they can not be too hard, since there was a girl who said to me once with full proud and confidence: “I do not cook, but I can bake.”
Turn out, her IQ fluctuates around room temperature, and that is in her good days. Make long story short, here we go, dumbest-of-them-all baking style.

Open those packages, place them on your cooking pans.
Preheat oven to 350F, place them into oven.
Dinner roll takes only 12 min, cookies stay another 3 min longer.
Leave cookies in the oven for another 3 min after you turn the heat off for a tender-crispy taste.

And that is all about it. Even if you substitute your brain to a rock or a watermelon you still can say that ‘…but I can bake’ crap proudly. And as you can see, it does look pretty OK.
Cookies are little bit too sweet, I won’t make them again, dinner rolls are alright and the calories from fat are tolerable. I got bored by making them (or should I say BAKING them) in such atrophied-brain fashion; let’s have some fun with dinner rolls in a more playful way next week.
will see

lately

2008-02-10T21:02:00.000-08:00

never sleepy, always hungery...

很好，很强大

2008-02-08T23:12:00.000-08:00

副标题：语录 1

亲爱的娜娜要结婚了，打电话给她。

我：不公平，咱俩儿是双胞胎，凭啥你先结。

娜娜：没事儿，没事儿，我好你就好。

我：那你生了孩子，我是不是咱儿子的干妈？

娜娜：那当～昂～然是你了。

我：。。可是。。。那样的话。。我算不算是未婚先有子啊？。。。

娜娜。。。。（晕倒，手机落地）

娜娜：等你生了孩子，我也是干妈喽？

我：嗯。。（坚定的点头）

娜娜：。。。那样的话。。我算不算有二胎啊？。。。

我：（舒心）嗯。很好，很和谐。。

娜娜：你过年都吃啥了呀？

我：啥也没吃，大雪封山出不了门啦。。。

娜娜：嗯，不怕，我替你吃。

我：（仇恨的）谢谢啊，七年了，你哪年不替我吃？

娜娜：所谓够朋友。。。

我：现在几斤？

娜娜： 110，你几斤？

我： 87

娜娜：啊啊啊～～我比你重23斤吗？

我：嗯，可见你这几年没有辜负我， 7年就吃出了23斤的差距。

娜娜：（怒）表刺激我啊。。。

我：其实也没啥，一天多长一钱肉并不难，难的是像你这样每天都长一钱肉， 7年不间断。（大笑大笑）

娜娜：（恼羞成怒）闭嘴！敢回来我就砍了你。

娜娜：唉，你都去了7年了，人生将近1/3的时间都在国外了。

我：嗯。。很快就1/2了。。

娜娜：然后就是3/4, 4/5, 5/6….

我：啊呀，我还以为你见不得阿拉伯数字儿呢？（娜，高中时痛恨数学）

娜娜：（谦虚的）还好， 10以内还好。。

Good Night, Moon

2008-02-05T17:39:00.000-08:00

There's a nail in the door
And there's glass on the lawn
Tacks on the floor
And the TV is on
And I always sleep with my guns when you're gone
There's a blade by the bed
And a phone in my hand
A dog on the floor
And some cash on the nightstand
When I'm all alone the dreaming stops
And I just can't stand
What should I do I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out
And maybe and then the wind just starts to moan
Outside the door he followed me home
So goodnight moon
I want the sun
If it's not here soon
I might be done
No it won?t be too soon 'til I say goodnight moon
There's a shark in the pool
And a witch in the tree
A crazy old neighbor and he's been watching me
And there's footsteps loud and strong coming down the hall
Something's under the bed
Now it's out in the hedge
There's a big black crow sitting on my window ledge
And I hear something scratching through the wall
What should I do I'm just a little baby
What if the lights go out
And maybe and then the wind just starts to moan
Outside the door he followed me home
So goodnight moon
I want the sun
If it's not here soon
I might be done
No it won't be too soon 'til I say goodnight moon

OK.. I will let you go....

2008-02-05T00:52:00.000-08:00

As title said.....

____________________________________________
You don't have to live a double life just because your sign is symbolized by two fish. Your interests are so varied that others may have a hard time keeping up with you. No matter what you appear to be doing, your real focus now should be on your inner world as you explore uncharted areas of your imagination.

By Rick Levine

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

___________________________________________

Life has been pretty good to me...I really should not complain anymore, only if I can ignor my 'inner world' as my horoscope mentioned... Really, I've got enough goodies from life...more than enough...most of time. I really appreciated...
__________________________________________

I will still keep putting on some cooking tips, that is at least I can do. Check them out and take a good care of yourself. You will do just as great as it could be without me in bothyour career and life in general.
...hugs...

神奇的小王(12)

2008-02-04T13:24:00.000-08:00

Subtitle: Congee
Another super super easy dish you can make for yourself. And that is ok if you do not have a slow cooker. You can just use your rice cook as long as you put enough extra water, and pay a little bit more attention on timing, coz otherwise you just make rice in the end. ^_^

from top, clockwise they are black rice, red beans, sticky rice, peanuts and lotus seeds.
But really you do not have to follow exactly what I have here, anything you can find will be ok, I guess. even you only rice, or green beans. I put whole a lot because I just read an article baout red colored food suppose be very good for your blood vessels and something something good with your blood. But I do suggest you to get some lotus seeds, they are not only healthy but also yummy.

dump everything in a slow cooker, (in your case, for now, rice cooker. )
3 or 4 cups of water, depends on how many stuff you have, I love to put more than enough water to make it watery.
Put slow cooker on 'Low', (in your case, 'on'.)
And then go to sleep. (in you case, I do not know if you can do this, you may need to watch out, or maybe you can, just try out. )

Wake up next morning, meaning, after 8 hours, this is how it looks like.

Add honey, if you like milky taste, add milk.
My experience: milk is always good.

Tips: I heard slow cooker is very engery consuming, I use it often becaues...you know... I do not pay for electricity in my apt. But I have no idea how much electicity it would consume overnight. Now give it a second thought, stove and big pot will do the same work if you attempt extra care.
Let me know how do you like it?

神奇的小王（11）

2008-02-02T21:22:00.000-08:00

Subtitle: Tofu Cilantro

It is as easy as it sounds.
What: soft Tofu, green onion, cilantro, salt and sesame oil.
How : cut tofu into pieces, the size and shape won't matter much since you gonna blend everything later on and they gonna be shapeless anyway.
chop onion and cilantro as thin as you can (wash them first, btw).
mix everything and add sesame oil and salt, it is totally depends no your own taste , sesame oil is always good for a authentic oriental dish.

this should be heath and easy to prepare. Did you try the steamed eggs yet? What else you want to eat?

Since the whole building is using energy saving light balls, my kitchen lighting is not as good as before, although it was not good neither. anyhow, hope that can help you get a basic idea what is in it (left is chopped cilantro and right is chopped green onions).

And.... drink warm water instead of cold water, k?

神奇的小王（10）

2008-02-01T21:33:00.000-08:00

Subtitle: Steamed Eggs

I think steamed egg can easily beat jello on the taste and under non-solid food catergory unlike quiche. So here we go.

2 eggs, cooked shrimp (optional), salt, big bowl.

Mix eggs with 1 cup (or ¾ cup) of water. The point is that 1 cup of water makes it tender, ¾ cup of water makes it taste more eggy.

Dash salt (I suggest not to put too much slat, you can always add more salt if it is not salty enough),

Put in shrimp, but totally ok, if you do not have those. It just add some seafood flavor to eggs. Mix them well.

Put bowl into the big pot. Make sure the egg is only half way full in the bowl, it will ‘grow’ while you steam them. Fill water in the big pot, water should be half high of the bowl. Not too much water in the pot since when water boils it is easily spill into the bowl and dilutes the eggs, nor too little of water, the pot will dry once the water became steam. Anyhow, put on the lid, turn the stove to high for 15 min – 20 min.

Put some sesame oil or vinegar for richer flavor. Although it does not look so good from the picture, I am sure you will like how it taste, you do not even have to chew them.

PS, Do not forget yellow banana, Jello is so not nutritious.

神奇的小王（9）

2008-02-01T11:28:00.000-08:00

Subtitle: Easy Steak
Steak, yet not quite steak, I like to use really thin-no-bone-beef, make it palm size (your palm, not mine). Thus faster to cook and easier for the taste get into the meat.
Total cooking time include preparation is less than 10min, should be manageable for ya. ^_^

Basically, you only need salt and steak spice.

Dash salt and steak spice on the surface, both sides if you want it tastier.

Spray vegetable oil on the bottom of cooking pan.

Lay steak on the pan, turn the stove to medium. Leave if for about 2 or 3 min, and then flip over. Leave this side for another 2 min or however you like it to be done, rare, medium, well done, you are the cook after all.

Baby spinach and cilantro, since I run out baby spinach that green thing on the bottom is cabbage. Trustme, baby spinach is much better.
Tips: beef is relatively harder to digest than poultry, so please chew couple more times before you swallow, say 25 times. It taste better that way too.

神奇的小王（8）

2008-01-30T08:56:00.000-08:00

副标题： super breakfast

Can not be any easier to make. babay spanish, chopped celery, shimps, eggs with sesame and ginger salad dressing. Of course, a cup of milk too.
Takeing care of myself has became number one task nowadays. alas~

同意

2008-01-29T19:35:00.000-08:00

曾有人做过实验，将一只最凶猛的鲨鱼和一群热带鱼放在同一个池子，然后用强化玻璃隔
开，最初，鲨鱼每天不断冲撞那块看不到的玻璃，耐何这只是徒劳，它始终不能过到对面
去，而实验人员每天都有放一些鲫鱼在池子里，所以鲨鱼也没缺少猎物，只是它仍想到对
面去，想尝试那美丽的滋味，每天仍是不断的冲撞那块玻璃，它试了每个角落，每次都是
用尽全力，但每次也总是弄的伤痕累累，有好几次都浑身破裂出血，持续了好一些日子，
每当玻璃一出现裂痕，实验人员马上加上一块更厚的玻璃。
后来，鲨鱼不再冲撞那块玻璃了，对那些斑斓的热带鱼也不再在意，好像他们只是墙上会
动的壁画，它开始等着每天固定会出现的鲫鱼，然后用他敏捷的本能进行狩猎，好像回到
海中不可一世的凶狠霸气，但这一切只不过是假像罢了，实验到了最后的阶段，实验人员
将玻璃取走，但鲨鱼却没有反应，每天仍是在固定的区域游着它不但对那些热带鱼视若无
睹，甚至于当那些鲫鱼逃到那边去，他就立刻放弃追逐，说什么也不愿再过去，实验结束
了，实验人员讥笑它是海里最懦弱的鱼。

可是失恋过的人都知道为什么，它怕痛。

What about Thursdays

2008-01-25T12:27:00.000-08:00

Huh~ I just do not get it why Thursday is so hot.
Professor A called me that want me to organize a hot pot party for Chinese New Year that was very nice of him doing this three years in a row. I asked when will be the best time for us to meet and set up a guest list. He said ‘Thursday would be the best day.’ And I said ‘sure’.
Professor B is my advisor, I need to see him at least two hours a week. I asked ‘what day will be the most convenient for you?’ he said “Thursdays.” And I said ‘Sure’
When I meet up with Professor A, and tried to set up a date for the hot pot, he said the best day is next Thursday.
I am planning go to Chinese Restaurant with Professor B, since he has been like a father to me. But he said he only around campus on Thursdays.
Chinese School dropped me an email asked me if I can instruct another program this semester. I said ‘Sure, what day you are thinking?’ “Thursdays”
The lady who schedules student time sheet called me today asking if I can stay longer for Thursdays. I said ‘not really, matter of fact I have to leave early, but what is up’. Then she told me that on Thursdays there is this meeting somewhere for something, so they need someone be in the office the whole time to taking care of the phone calls.
Ok, that is that, not mentioning my class mates asking me if I want to join theirs every Thursday out going, and my coworker wondering I can go to this place (forgot the name, since I won’t make it in the first place) for the drink (forgot that drink’s name also, since I am not even gonna be there) with her, and my roommate wants me to work out with her on Thursdays.
So, my Thursdays literally became the heaviest day. Now it looks like this. Wake up at 6:30am, have class at 8am, go to library after class; go to work at noon; go to see my professor at 3pm; have dinner in my car while I am driving to the Chinese school and get it done by 8pm then go for those social events if I still have energy left.
Wow , what is so great about Thursday anyway? And what is wrong about other six days of the week?

how could this be?

2008-01-23T22:00:00.000-08:00

I have done anything yet, it is already midnight~

sentences I read from others and random thoughts

2008-01-20T20:55:00.000-08:00

"有些事，我们明知道是错的，也要去坚持，只因为不太甘心；
有些人，我们明知道是爱的，也要去放弃，只因为没有结局；
有时候，我们明知道没路了，却还在前行，只因为习惯……"
　　　　事业、前途、人间种种，好多时候，都是明知道没路了，还坚持着往前走，大概真的只因为习惯。
人啊，有时候怎么那么无能啊？！

C told me that Packer lost the game, I did not watch it.
Matter of fact, I do not care, it was not my interest in the first place.

I spend tonight, the night I suppose to work on my thesis, on watching 2008 fashion show on uTube. I felt guilty for a while, then I give it a second thought that women like fasion just like men like electronics. Because both fashion and electronics depreciate greatly with time. Yet both men and women are chasing the newest stlye, fashion 2008 is more attactive than fashion 2005 and iPhone is better than everything else. Immediately, the guilty feeling is gone.

Speaking of my thesis, painful every second I mention it to myself, I have to make it in a Ivy's-way to get over the unpleasantness. So...my topic will be 'the similarities between chicken fried rice with interest rate swaps' Althought my orignal idea was 'the tailored skirt and interest rate', I do not think my professor would understand those technics on skirts. And food is more universal... Regardless I think my professor will fall off his chair the minute he sees the title. And that is the pure motivation for me to work on my thesis.

Do not want to write anything...

2008-01-19T13:22:00.000-08:00

Save Me by Jem
I've gotta stop my mind
Working overtime
It's driving me insane
It will not let me live
Always so negative
It's become my enemy

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh

Why would I think such things
Crazy thoughts have quick wings
Gaining momentum fast
One minute I am fine
The next I've lost my mind
To a fake fantasy

And none of these
thoughts are real
So why is it that I feel
So cut up and so bad
I need to take control
Coz my mind is on a roll
And it isn't listening to me

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Mirror mirror on the wall
Who's the dumbest of them all
Insecurities keep growing
Wasted energies are flowing
Anger, pain and sadness beckon
Panic sets in in a second
Be aware it's just your mind
And you can stop it anytime

Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]
Save me ah ah save me ah ah
save me ah wooh
[thinking and thinking]

Ok so here we go
If it works I'll let you know
One two three I say stop

The music I am listening tonight.

2008-01-18T22:43:00.000-08:00

See Me Fall
Artist(Band):Lady & Bird

Right here coming to life
No one to blame
Right now up and about
A minute of fame

I've been staying alive
So many days
No fear, happy or wise
All through the way

But I thought there was something
In life to live for

But if you hear me fall
If you hear me fall
If you see me walk upon a bridge
Then don't recall

But if you hear me fall
If you hear me fall
If you see me walk upon a bridge
You've seen it all

Right here coming to life
Nothing to blame
I've been up and about under the rain
But I thought there was something in life to live for
Yes I thought you were something in life to live for

But if you hear me fall
If you hear me fall
If you see me walk upon a bridge
Then don't recall
That you see me

And if you hear me fall
If you hear me fall
If you see me walk upon a bridge
You've seen it all

depression

2008-01-16T12:46:00.001-08:00

I went to several offices today for those forms I need to fill so I can kiss school good bye for real this time. While I was signing my name and the date on those forms, I could not help but feeling how uncomfortable it was to write down “2008”, especially, after my name. When I was little, all I want was grow up, yet I never know one day I can grow old too. I would never image the ago of 30 will come to me. Are you kidding? 30! That is hell far far far away from me. But today, while I was signing all those 2008s, I suddenly realized that: I am pretty damn close to 30!
Do not take me wrong, I think 30 is still a fabulous age for women, no offense. It just I am far from where I wanted to be. I always had high hope for 30s, for me that is the age for settlement and enjoyment, job, career, location, family, content with life, in short. And now I am next to nothing expect aging. That is so depressing.
Another thing I need to work on is my thesis to graduate. My professor warned me that I better work hard and work fast on it. The truth is … I do not even like my thesis. There was a moment I thought it is gonna be something interesting and keep me working hard on it, but it turns out…no, I do not even care if not for my graduation sake. Thus, I shoot an email to my finance professor to see if he wants to work with me on my thesis. Hopefully, team work will mitigate my disarray.
Then I realized that I always use school as a band aid for everything goes wrong in my world. Sick of my job, back to school; can not bear with my boss, back to school. Then I use library as a band aid for everything I dislike with school. Had a tough class, go to library check out some movies. Do not want to do my paper, go to library to flip magazines. It is quite plausible given that I-love-study-attitude. But now, it is the time to get out school for real, and I have no where to hide anymore. It is also depressing.
So you see, I would be depressed whether I am in school or out. That is the real depression.

Random Day

2008-01-15T13:07:00.000-08:00

School officially started today. Which is ok, I guess, I do not suppose be in any of the classes if my professor did not mess my class list in the first place. Then I was thinking, that was not fully his fault, I did not double check on my list and simply assumed he was right. And now my plan has to revise, stuck in MKE and see where the opportunity leads me. What a BULL~
My life has always been on the edge, but never bothers me as much as right now. Maybe all is just because I am aging faster than I thought. Then I played the stupidest game called ‘what if’ with myself for a long while. What if my professor did not mistook my class list, I would be free to go anywhere now for job or other reasons. What if I did not quit my previous job, I would be the head of the department by now. What if I stick with my first choice and never question myself what if then, I won’t be left cold and cry. Yet, I know, life does not take what ifs, while all those things happening. I thought it has to be that way. I must believe my professor, because he is the director of my program. I had to leave my job, because I won’t stay here forever. I could not take this anymore, because I know I will drive both of us nuts in long run.… And now, I could not help but wondering that if I am under ‘nuts’ category, since I can easily howling for no reason in a middle of typing or reading.
I recovered from my cold, thus I do not have to plug tissue paper in my nose anymore. However, my head is still aching, even just nodding, I fell it is going to split from the middle. And I can do nothing about it.

I am going to

2008-01-14T20:49:00.001-08:00

rent this moive tomorrow.

You will become the one you choose

2008-01-13T16:53:00.000-08:00

Vivian comes to visit. We hang out pretty much the whole day.

While I took her on a tour of Marquette campus, she kept yelling ‘it is the same… nothing really changed….oh, look that building, just like 4 years ago’. Yeah, how time flies, it has been 4 years indeed. 4 years ago, we both sitting under library window, hoping one day when we get out school we can be the one we wanted to be. And now, she is holding a respectful job in downtown Manhattan, flying here and there meeting with clients, and me, still sitting under library window, wondering where I’d want to go.

After the campus tour V and I went to Bravo for an Italian late lunch, food is always terrific there. We talked about things happened around us, school, study, job, men etc. I did not know V had a broken romance as well, she does not look like a woman with a broken heart at all, which amazed me a ton. She still suggested me to go to east coast, she said from her understanding of my characters; NY fits me better than MKE. I hope that holds true.

We went shopping briefly after lunch and came back to my apartment. I made some ginger soup since she get a little cold too. We kept talking and both agreed that regardless what happened to us, or going to happen in the future, we will relinquish all the fears and be ourselves. Sometimes, I do need a friend as V to remind me that I am not that good, yet capable to do better.

V left pretty late, and for the first time in a long while I slept well.

I woke up fresh this morning, got some work done, and went to lake front for jogging. 30F is considered as warm for a city like MKE. I making a circle along the lake side, when I jog facing the city, I saw the MKE skyline lying in front of me. The city was still grey, cold and slow, but I do not have the uncomfortable feeling that much anymore.

I called my dad before dinner time, he is almost fully recovered from his surgery, which is great. I never stop feeling powerless and guilty for not able to taking care of him. Yet he is so understandable and never blame me for a thing. He told me that he is ready back to work next week, and I said me too.

2008 is going to be tough for me, and I won't allow myself linger around with a broken spirit. I know I can handle it. I always knew that.

the book I have been reading this week

2008-01-11T21:02:00.000-08:00

"I am not afraid of being alone."
"I am not afraid I'll make a mistake."
"I am not afraid of beig disliked."
"I am not afraid I won't be accepted."
"I am not afraid of being unmarried."
"I am not afraid of growing older."
"I am not afraid of being myself."
-----Judge Judy Sheindlin,
Beauty Fades, Dumb is Forever
pg 187

Things I have been doing this week

2008-01-10T22:38:00.001-08:00

Last week before school starts, since my professor screwed on my record, I still have one class before kiss school good! That is sort of ok, sort of not, gotta work on that.

My co-work in the office wanted going out tonight, I told her that I do not want to get them all sick like me so I better stay at home tonight. Which is partially true, the other part was… I never liked bars and clubs, and never in the mood for those.

After nagging about the kitchen floor for quite a while, C and I decided to work on it.

Each of us holding a bush, crowing on the floor, inch by inch by inch….brushed the floor… three times. C suddenly cried out ‘hahahah do we look like geishas (from the memories of Geisha)? I gonna work my way up..I wanna be a geisha….lalala…’ Sometimes I am amazed that she can always holds her spirit this high. We were just going to get the kitchen floor done, but it ends I brushed the bathroom and she brushed the hallway. Two hours later, we started regretting that we were working so hard on the floor, since our landlord won’t pay us for all that.

Thanks HongYing and Yanlin came over be my eating mates, without you guys I won’t have the appetite for anything. Tomorrow will be busy with taking grocery tour. And this weekend Vivian will come to town, oh, nice. Although I stayed over her place in NJ briefly, we did not get chance to do a real chat. V and I, some part of us are counterparts, other part of us are bipolar. But luckily, we still scream out loud every time seeing each other.

某个时候，相爱相伤

2008-01-07T21:36:00.001-08:00

女人的一生总是会在某个时候，因为爱情而幽怨。

哪怕是再不被看好的爱情，只要适时，亦可盖上‘感情寄托’的印章。

可是峰回路转，到了分道扬镳的刀口，是抱着一起跳崖，还是分手后仍是朋友就看各人造化了。

所以才会有，‘我死之后，话为厉鬼，使君妻妾，日夜不宁’，才会有‘锦水汤汤，与君长绝’，才会有‘取次花丛懒回顾，半缘修道半缘君’，才会有‘执子之手，与子白头。’

某个时候，那个幽怨的时候，恰是‘恋爱中的犀牛’的时候。

然后顿悟，爱情跟喜剧，体育，流行音乐没什么不同，是为了让人活得轻松愉快的。

可是分手的爱情才有多少不是以撕裂为代价的。

闷骚的表达方式便是，佛设地狱以戒世人，可这世上还有什么地狱比的上三千红尘相爱相伤。

明骚则是，若要不相伤，便要爱上了一个立马就嫁掉，否则不知一生要亲手撕裂多少爱情，又担心将爱人打为外伤，自己却中了内伤。

佛说：人之所以痛苦，是因为追求错误的东西。

佛还说了：一段感情，即使没有结果，也会在彼岸开出花。

那么好吧，从此，不再说话。

PS，哀家在百无聊赖中做了个感情测试，被告知：“你的真心人是谁？你一生会有无数的爱人，少则七八个，多则20多个。你自己都不知道谁是你的最爱。也许有的人会被你记住，但记住不代表爱情。你戏弄红尘，嘲笑爱情，浪逐尘世，也被尘世、爱情、红尘狠狠的报复、惩罚。”

那么，那谁谁，你也真的不必这般委屈，好似我夺你生命_____________________________

This is for Ding2, I have done this while ago, after he said that 'Life is as simple as you wanted to be. '
SIMPLE is the key, we both wanted to be and we both failed.

"Turn into something beautiful --- Yellow"

2008-01-06T18:33:00.000-08:00

Days blur into nights, it just so quickly that I did not realize what did I do everyday.
And.... I am kind of sick with getting so sick at the beginning of.. almost everything year....

This one is for JiaJia, last year she HAND made a Christmas card for me, it is still on the display shelf. I really wish I can do the same, but I clearly know I am not that elaborate. So here is a very Christmasy kinda green and red, hope it works.

This is for Janet, sorry girl, I was going to call you on NY's eve, but I must misplaced your phone number somewhere.

PS, Since I am so sick lately, all the lines here are kinda shaking.... I did not do that on purpose. :(

Everyone, Happy New Year, if it is not too late; and keep warm, if you happen being in a not-that-warm place.

New Year's Day

2008-01-01T09:51:00.000-08:00

NYD is just another day for libraries and gyms to be legally closed.
Being honest, I find holidays are really annoying.

last day b4 new years eve

2007-12-30T18:33:00.000-08:00

answer key:
Deleting
only you can do it..
_________________________
悟到三层：
未完的爱情只是递减的惯性，
划上一点时间，自然会停。
_________________________
a perfect day:
morning: breakfast;
afternoon: grocery; cooking; luandry; eating like no tormorrow
night: read; sleep like a log.

Never got this figure out

2007-12-25T22:32:00.000-08:00

No, this trick won't work... How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?
----Einstein
I was born on the same day with this guy, I mean, exactly the same day, even take the time difference into account, of coz,101 years later. But how come he is so much wiser than me. >_<>

Merry Christmas

2007-12-25T08:21:00.001-08:00

No need to say more, thanks everyone who is with me this year enriched my life and helped me grow.
Any wish you a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Kinda cliché but that is what traditions about.
Hugs from Santa

Kitty fashion spring 2008

2007-12-23T19:00:00.000-08:00

Classy Style

European Style

Traditional Russian Style

the collapsing of Sphinx

2007-12-21T22:27:00.000-08:00

Little by little, she finally....collapsed.

Resting

2007-12-21T06:17:00.001-08:00

1， Her new sleepling hobby makes my leg numb.

2，看我俩儿那眼神儿，涣散的跟网兜似的。。。

IT IS IVY TIME~

我又搬家了

帅爹辣妈

机器猫语录（４）

机器猫语录（３）

机器猫语录（２）

机器猫语录（１）

随便摘抄娜娜email 上的一句话都能让我笑半天

天涯若比邻

美~~

The World

活色生香 (2)

活色生香 (1)

杂

我和翁翁美女不得不说的故事

ThanksGiving

神奇的小王（24）

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Books I have been reading (2)

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那些是非过往

Sorry, my brain is currently not available

I said : "WHAT?~"

神奇的小王

乐子是要不断找的

乐子都是自己找的

吐吐就习惯了

Pending

无话可说

Old Man in Sorrow

Books I have been reading lately (1)

神奇的小王 （20）

宏营语录

没对

第一口蛋糕的滋味，

一片空白

Is Life Funny?

Like her

seven colors

A day just gone by

神奇的小王 （17）

In Celebration of Love

Face . Book

会不同

巴黎人民听着

TAKE A BOW

Where she goes? (2)

where she goes?

I had this day too many times already~~

Received (1)

the edge of sanity

please do not stop the talk (4)

Guilty pleasure

Q and A

Einstein Says:

School News -- Public Safety Alert

Please do not stop the talk (3)

Please do not stop the talk (2)

Please do not stop the talk (1)

One color rules them all~

Confused

Books I have been reading lately

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J Lo

新年。回放

神奇的小王 （15）

BBS

It is all over but the crying

too little too late (title has nothing to do with the content below)

Baking is overrated

lately

很好， 很强大

Good Night, Moon

OK.. I will let you go....

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很好，很强大

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