Just notice that

the city I live

has somewhat


paradise looking


Oct 2007

Let Time Goes By

Avoid the temptation of filling in too many details on your calendar, for concrete planning today may not be as effective as you wish. Taking time for spiritual rejuvenation today is a smart idea and can go a long way to reducing your stress level through the entire week ahead. Have faith that your intuition will guide you to your destination.

Sunday, November 11, 2007
Daily Horoscope

Random thoughts after ‘In the dark tomb’

We had good laughs together,

We had good cries together;

We had days together,

We had nights together;

We had dinner together,

We had breakfast together;

……

When one uses ‘had’ it’s always semi-sad,

Especially, when our path

Splits at the end

…….

We may never live together;

We may never have kids together;

We may not even see each other for a very very long time;

……

But in my pocket, I have all the ‘had’& ‘together’

And years from now,

I will open the pocket and pray:

“Please do not bathe my ashes with venom”

….

Coz, they are the only beautiful time,

I ever had…

My Moan

From Luciano Pavarotti

Live Recital

Beethoven: In Questa tomba Oscura

WoO 133

In questa tomba oscura

Lasciami riposar;

Quando vivevo, ingrate,

Dovevi a me pensar.

Lascia che I’ ombre ignude

Godansi pace almen,

E non bagnar mie ceneri

D’inutile velen

In questa tomba oscura, ecc

English Translations :

In this dark tomb

Let me rest;

Ungrateful one, you should

Have thought of me alive.

Let naked shadows

Enjoy their peace,

And do not bathe my ashes

With useless venom

In this dark tomb, etc.

神奇的小王 (6)

副标题：重出江湖之坚果菠菜 （baby spinach w/ pin nuts）

小王同学前些时候因心灵破碎，久无饕餮。这些时日，元气稍有回复，重出江湖。

当然了，这也要怪Rita 同学，让俺替她买菠菜，俺买完以后她又说‘自己留着吃吧’。以至于造成了暂时性菠菜过剩的情形。 浪费就是犯罪， 怎么样俺也要为钟爱的菠菜讨个说法。

闲言少叙， 坚果菠菜很容易的

1， 热油，炒蒜蓉，

2， 出香味后放菠菜， 翻翻， 翻翻， 再翻番。

3， 同时放坚果， 最好是松子儿， 味道很香很香的， 但是小王家秉承一贯的因陋就简，放了核桃。 最后罗嗦一下， 松子儿真的很好吃。

4， 撒盐， 出锅。

那个鱼是红烧的， 更容易了， 两边煎煎，放料酒，酱油，姜片， 一点红糖，一点盐， 熟了就出锅。 两个菜一起做十来分钟就好了。

这般看来，小王的胃口还是不错的，即便是在这么破碎的时期，还不忘在肉蛋禽鱼的世界中开拓进取。 自赞一个～～

Winning Story of Nov 8th 2007

The girl and her apple tree
---By Ding 2

I am an apple tree, standing proud in front the lawn of the farm house where the girl that care for me lives. My story is about love, love that is unfathomable, love that is not easy to understand, love that is fragile, and love that is not eternal. The story happen during the time when the girl care for me deeply, passionately and unselfishly. The girl fertilize me, cut my narrow branches, clean up the soil around me, and watch me all the time. I am a bad apple tree, no matter how hard she care for me, I rarely give her any fruits, I grow my fruits slowly and randomly, troubling the girl that care for me so much. The girl stands strong, no matter how bad I treat her, she will always back and care for me. My appreciation starts to grow too, I started to give her more fruits and she's happy ... or I thought she was. It was near the season where I will grow a lot of fruits ... I was planning to do my best and give her all I can give. All goes well ... until that one day ... the day that change my life forever, the day that makes everything around me so gloomy, makes my soil tasteless, my roots shivers up. That day that I found out that she was eating orange! Imagine the shock that comes into my branches, she's enjoying the oranges so passionately, so delicately, and looks so happy. To that I can't blame her, I've been the one that failed to produce, failed so bad, that she has to leave me. But she didn't, she still care for me, but she didn't bother to pick my fruits anymore. I asked to her one day, "Why wouldn't you pick my apple anymore?" She replied in her very tender voice,"I tasted orange, its a different kind of fruit, not comparable, but I can't bring myself back to apple, I already changed my mind, I will keep you here, for now until you no longer produce any fruits, then I will cut you down and bury your roots on the best spot on my lawn, but I will not try to care for you or pick for your fruits anymore"

That day, I dawn myself with regret, sadness, and a burden that my heart can't take, that I cried and cried and cried until no more tears can be shed. There am I, standing tall in the lawn, watching my caretaker eating orange while deep inside I am rotting away and wishfully hope for a better life after I reborn again ... now I will just wither in the winter and leave this cold world ... for a while ... till I come back ... as the pure seed I was, with the knowledge of the wiser ... farewell oh my sweet loving caretaker ...

由grocery shopping 引发的一些联想，

牛肉的价钱已经降到了$1.99一磅， 牛奶的价钱却涨到了$3.38一加仑。

同志们，知道威斯康星州的别名叫什么么？ Dairy Land 啊～

难道我们的奶牛们都成了痴肥狂膘，不挤奶的蠢物了抹？

买桶牛奶都能被刺激到，

这次第，怎一个郁闷了得～～

看来，哀家又要自个儿磨豆浆了～～

From Albert Einstein

"A happy man is too satisfied with the present to dwell too much on the future."

A memoir, for the broken heart

还能怎样怎样， 一切打回原型。。

实在是没必要这般颓丧，苦着张脸，每日讨厌自己两三次，又何必。

想想小杨放弃了长我三倍的感情， 那么日子还有什么不能继续。

伤痛是肯定的， 撕裂了， 破碎了，燃尽了，不再有温暖，

哭也哭过了， 梨花带雨，残花败柳，劫后余生。

也只得珍惜， 说声珍重，再抱一下，

同一条街， 两个世界， 还在唱， 爱谁谁。

依旧不肯见人，不愿说话，

因为，

说了也没用。

那么， 我决定

断烟戒酒， 煲汤炖肉

跑步游泳，衣着光鲜

还能怎样？ 打回原形，

好好爱自己。

——————暂时性怀旧分割线——————

PS， 翻出N百九十年前离别旧情人时写的东东， 哀家那时的PH值肯定为零， 酸到自己都看不下去， 好在现在神经已越发大条。 所谓成长或许就是褪去一层层的纯真敏感多情，换为麻木冷漠安静的过程而已。 其中喜哀也只有自己明了。

谁的掌纹， 谁的宿命，谁的轮回

其实一切早已既定，

再多的百转迁回，也不过是，，殊途同归。

无论是劫还是缘， 我们相遇了，

带着良辰美景，残垣断壁，和风细雨，狂风巨浪，细弱易碎，坚不可摧。。

我们还是相遇了

然而表达的一切却终将是虚幻。。

看到的，不是希翼的

握住的，不是真实的

心疼的，不是自己的

拥抱着的，不是有体温的

要离开，又留下

大笑着，也啜泣

乏力，无力，气已若游丝

我们真的就这样相遇了,

生命中打了个死结, 要怎样去解？

知道曼珠沙华吗？就是歌中唱的彼岸花，

那片片溢香的红色，能唤起

死者对生前的记忆。

如果有等待，我愿让时间的长河将我湮没。

那时，我的双手会苍老干枯，会抚摸着一个又一个的，死结。

然后，

让那海水火焰，万紫千红，白云苍狗， 沧海桑田，

在我掌中，再次涌现。

It is all over but the crying -- Garbage

This is a song I got from Rita,
not too much, only love this one sentence ,
'It is over but the crying'
That is what a woman at least can do...
not necessary a bad thing,
not bad at all...

To Whom Barked Me Over the Phone

“低调是永恒的美德， 缺心眼的话就要学会沉默。。。”
----北京病人

“Make those stupid people shut up! ”
---Happy Bunny

补充： 我俩儿一周瑜，一黄盖，管你丫P事啊！ F8888R,气死哀家了！！
---Ivy

Right Now

Devastated 毁灭
Broken 破碎
Hurt 伤痛
Empty 空乏
Senseless 麻木

残垣断壁，

万劫不复，

撕裂，

从头皮，到脚心。。。