last day b4 new years eve

answer key:
Deleting
only you can do it..
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悟到三层：
未完的爱情只是递减的惯性，
划上一点时间，自然会停。
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a perfect day:
morning: breakfast;
afternoon: grocery; cooking; luandry; eating like no tormorrow
night: read; sleep like a log.

Never got this figure out

No, this trick won't work... How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?
----Einstein
I was born on the same day with this guy, I mean, exactly the same day, even take the time difference into account, of coz,101 years later. But how come he is so much wiser than me. >_<>

Merry Christmas

No need to say more, thanks everyone who is with me this year enriched my life and helped me grow.
Any wish you a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Kinda cliché but that is what traditions about.
Hugs from Santa

Kitty fashion spring 2008

Classy Style


European Style

Traditional Russian Style

the collapsing of Sphinx

Little by little, she finally....collapsed.

Resting

1， Her new sleepling hobby makes my leg numb.



2， 看我俩儿那眼神儿， 涣散的跟网兜似的。。。

new hobby besides doing nothing

Red is the only color in my world, so that is me listening an iPod.
It is the very first brush water paint, not quite use to the brushes yet, the back ground red looks kinda ... unpleasant...haha....reminds me a four years old.

HongYing said 'we can be sisters' I thought that is kinda touching, so this is her.
She also said blue and green are her favorite colors. hope this kind of fair tale blue would work.
Janet, yours are coming. I am going to have a sister serie. What is ur favorite colors?

It was the day we drove to New York City. I was going to color all the cars red, but I changed my mind eventually. That is Lincoln tunnel ahead, hehe I guess I am a four years old.

cat sitting -- day one

Checking out my books. ..




Posing on my floor,
Alright little fuzzy, I can use ur accompany.
Have we talked enough tonight? I really need to go to sleep now. :P

Alas~

Ultimate Re-Joy of Life:
Inflict the ultimate pain of life to the traitor
~d2
Even if I came back, you won't love be the same way as before anyway.
Would you be happy if .. I am really gone?
~b2

Trivia, nothing important

Days have been really quite lately, no more classes, no more deadlines (well, there is deadline for my thesis, but still, not that deadly.) I spend most of time in my apartment, if C is not here I will use the vacancy to clear all the rooms. Anyhow, she is sick and stay. The poor girl is coughing constantly, her voice is getting horse and nose is running none stop. Do not take this wrong, C and I are like sisters, love each other and be supportive all the time. But for the sake of her own health I have to play distance. I try to not talk to her, every time she talks to me, and close my door most of the time when we both in the apartment. Since close contact will help germs spread and once I got the flu from her, we will just be two sick people passing the virus back and fourth. She has to handle her sickness alone and hopefully she will get well soon.

On the phone with Nana briefly yesterday, she brought those swimming suits I ordered on line and going to ship them from China to here to “comfort me”. Ever since I told her I have been crying, she thought I gonna go suicide or something. Since we have been best friends for over 22 years and she never saw me cry. Or she just did not believe I am capable to cry. Anyhow, I am getting some new swimming suits soon, the old one is floating around me once both me and it in the water.

This week it snowed twice, one time it lasted 3 days, the other time lasted 4 days. Snow everywhere thus I do not feel going out for anything not even groceries. So I have not really cook nor eat any real food expect chocolates. Today, I was up to a dying point, I cooked pretty much everything I have in the refrigerator which is a little beef, 2 eggs and some leftover spaghetti noodles. Nothing fancy but a lot for one meal. Half hour after I ate, Rita called to ask if I want to go for lunch with her. Good timing girlfriend, but I am simply too full to move now.

Q is going on a vacation, so she asked me if I can take care of her cat for a week. Hohoho, of cause, can not wait that fuzzy little thing.

My Snow Day

Just a normal snowy winter day in Milwaukee.

Got out of gym, went to Milwaukee public library.


It was pretty dark whenI heading back home from Public Library.
Milwaukee logo Gesu church and MU logo Marquette Hall.

Kinda cute in snow,

Done

Finally, the exams are done, papers are done, first draft is done, although there are still tons of work to do for my thesis defense, I am only one step to get out of school.

Yesterday, half of the class met in a bar and felt like to sink them in alcohol to celebrate the end this tough semester. Yeah, it has been tough for all of us. Some suffered from the classes, some suffered from work, some suffered from personal life… Sure, aclcohol is not the remedy easing all the pains, but definitely helps.

I got couple of shots, damn, it has been so long since my last bottle of vodka. I have Mongolian blood in me after all, peal off my skin I still ganna be tough.

Tomorrow is another party for Economics Association to celebrate those who are getting out of school, we gonna drink again, ha.

Tears and cheers, school is thisi funny thing, it is so painful and hateful in a level, but that is the only way for you to learn. When you really get out of it, you miss it. And maybe, who knows, a few years later, you will back into it again.

忘掉他，忘掉他就可以不必再忍受，忘掉他就可以不必再痛苦。忘掉他，忘掉你没有的东西，忘掉别人有的东西， 忘掉你失去和以后不能得到的东西，忘掉仇恨，忘掉屈辱，忘掉爱情。像犀牛忘掉草原，像水鸟忘掉湖泊，像地狱里的人忘掉天堂，像截肢的人忘掉自己曾快步如 飞，像落叶忘掉风，像图拉忘掉母犀牛。忘掉是一般人能做的惟一的事，但是我决定不忘掉他。

--《恋爱的犀牛》

why do we read diaries?

Dear Janet
Did you read Dec 10th 2007's New Yorker? haha go and find the article "Work up this morning, why do we read diaries."
I think we both under the 'superego' category, according to the author. hahah maybe she is right, it makes me laugh to think this kinda classification.
And I found this sentence is extremely funny. "the rule is perverse, because all writing is about control, and writing a diary is a way to control the day - to have, as it were the last word."
I bet you gonna enjoy it.

love
Ivy

PS. see, " writen for the eyes of others", that's so 'superego' ^_^

Remorse

Please forgive me for putting commons on your laziness and carelessness. I did not mean it in a bad way at all. I guess it was the PMS.

I truly like who you are and how you are, it just up to a point I can not take anymore.

And I do not even want you to change, coz that won’t be you, but I just can not take it anymore.

I never meant to hurt you, although it is the consequence, and I knew it.

Maybe, I am a crazy, irrational, psycho, whatever you call it.

So please do not take my words too serious, I was just talking, barely making any sense most of the time.

All R Dreams

Gold and silver, transparent chest

Dreamt about you, in my room, for no reason we started making out. Kissing, touching and all that, and all of sudden, you said ‘honey, wait, I need to recharge my heart.’ Confusing enough, I unbuttoned your shirt, your chest was transparent. I could see the gold and silver colors with different shapes doing all kinds of mechanical works inside of your chest. You said, ‘baby, that is how my heart works, now I need to charge it, otherwise it gets weaker and weaker.’ Stocking indeed, but before I could say a word, here came in a dark, short, round shape, very unpleasant looking man/woman (could not really tell), this person said to you, ‘you have to go.’

With that, you left, and I, dissolved.

Tasteless tourists

I was traveling, to somewhere noisy. I found a house, large and warm, the owner said to me ‘you can take that room.’ So I did.

One day, while I was resting under the window, there were a troop of tasteless dressed people came in, they yielding loud and jumping around. They looked at me and bursted into laugher ‘this place is for tourists~~not for you!’

Big blue water and dolphin

I was standing in a middle of huge pond, so huge as if it were a lake or sea. But that did not matter much, the water just covered my knees, I standing there and feeding a dolphin, the dolphin swimming happily and I was smiling and feeding the dolphin that was all I did.

And then the clouds came over the pond, the water no longer blue and the dolphin transformed into a shark. The shark swam around me furiously, with only its triangle dorsal fin showed above the water. The water got colder and colder, I was stung and senselessly, standing there, watching, no fear, or I just did not remember.

I forgot after how long, the water finally back to blue and the shark became dolphin again, and I left the pond. I looked back; there was no dolphin anymore, only the big blue water.

亲爱的， 我不是伤心，是伤感

It is the snow covers my heart

Too bad, I won’t get the chance to be your bride.
But my feelings towards me won’t ever change.

I know I am greedy, and my wants never enough,
I know one person can only give this much, and it is the percentage counts.
I finally know you tried to give me all of you.
I finally know one person only needs this much.
I am sorry;
I knew all these too late.

Thanks for all the love and warmness you gave me,
Thanks for all the helps, supports and comforts,
Thanks for all the hugs, kisses and touches,
These precious treasures stored in the gentlest part of my heart,

May all the dots be connected one day,
Thanks for being my accompany this far,
You are right, I should let you go, fully,
So farewell,
my big baby, my panda, my ding2.

To 小杨

宝贝，抱一下，
这种时候最让人崩溃，
你掉泪的时候，我也哗啦哗啦的，
那也没什么， 我们的神经只得越发的大条。
最后成为两头百毒不侵，无坚能摧的老妖怪。
就，圆满啦～

First Snow Day

Senselessly, laying in bed and watching the snow falling.
Luckly, I still have a heater to agaist the cold cold winner.
Keep warm, people. Whereever, you are.

Should I study or should I watch a movie??

Should I study or should I watch a movie??
Should I study or should I watch a movie??
Should I study or should I watch a movie??
Should I study or should I watch a movie??
Should I study or should I watch a movie??

C: "Do you have a lot to do?"
I: "I have ... one, two, three..four.. books to read"
C: "and....what do you think?"
I :" MOIVE!~ Homework can wait.."
C:"........................................"

IVY. PICASSO.WANG

好吃好喝， 阳光灿烂
感觉仍是若有所失。

梦见被狗咬， 梦见婴儿哭， 梦见拖死尸。
情景嘈杂，色彩纷呈，阳光也灿烂。

什么叫做穷极无聊。
画个屁股，
毕大爷，天才也。

Spooky story of today

Lately, I switched my anti-depression-hobby from shopping to cooking. I consider this is a healthier way for self recovering.

Yesterday, I just cooked 9 pounds chicken legs and 4 pounds beef. Rita came over to help me……to eat.

Today, I am trying to pack those cooked chicken into several small containers and distribute to friends. Since after seeing so many chicken in such a short of time….I just do not feel like eating them anymore.

Anyhow, the spooky story started after I put chicken into containers….then….I could not find any lids for these containers.

I yield my roommate C in the other room “HI~ roommie~~ did you see those lids.”

“What?~” C rushed over with a confused face.

“the lids for those containers.” I pointed those open containers with chickens in.

C started searching our kitchen cabinets, which I already searched. Minute later she turned over and gave me the most innocent look, “man, those containers are new, the lids must be somewhere~~” (What a useless comment, like I did not know...)

“and…where are our pot lids??” I just noticed that those pots who sitting on the stove were lidless too.

“Oh~oH~~ this is freaky….freaky in an annoying way~” C cried.

Then we came to a conclusion: there is a lids-ghost in our apartment. We can only hope he/she return our lids in time next time when we need them.

I have to switch containers for my chicken this time.

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after Spooky story pictures as if after meal dessert. it just so necessary, haha

Dinner I had with Rita yesterday.

Lighting in my kitchen is terriable and my camera is outdated, anyway, it looks much nicer if the plate were in front of you. I sware...

When the lighting is right and camera performs, the vergi looks like following.

Ivy.Picasso.Wang

小王，她，
又开始搞闯做啦～
这个是Packer 对Lion
虽然，她， 从来不看美式足球～

The Lover

“He said that to him it was strange how much their story had remained what it was before, how he still loved her, how he would never stop loving her for the rest of his life. How he would love her until he died.
He heard her crying on the telephone.
And then from further off, probably from her room – room she hadn’t hung up – he could still hear her crying. And then he tried to hear still more. She was no longer there. She had become invisible, unreachable. And he had cried. Very hard. With all the strength that was in him.”

The Lover
Marguerite Duras






Print: Carpenters - This Masquerade

Are we really happy with
This lonely game we play
Looking for the right words to say
Searching but not finding
Understanding anyway
We’re lost in this masquerade

Both afraid to say we’re just too far away
From being close together from the start
We tried to talk it over
But the words got in the way
We’re lost inside this lonely game we play

(*) throughts of leaving disappear
Each time I see your eyes
And no matter how hard I try
To understand the reason
Why we carry on this way
And we’re lost in this masquerade

We tried to talk it over
But the words got in the way
We’re lost inside this lonely game we play

Repeat (*)
We’re lost in a masquerade

因为刚考完，所以比较闲， 有时间干点这些没用的事。
同志们见谅了啊，
其实人家，内心深深处， 也是无比文艺的瓦～～

Le.Tourbillon.De.La.Vie

哇～～这么好听，还这么好看， 跟仙女儿似的，
就是不知道在唱啥。。
来， 小杨， briefly。。。

生命的漩涡

"She had rings on each finger,
Rounds of bracelets around her wrists,
And then she sang a song with such a voice that hypnotized me at once."

"She had eyes, the eyes of Opal,
that fascinated me, fascinated me
It was her pale oval face
that doomed my life."


"We met, we recognized each other,
We lost track of each other, we lost sight
We found each other again, we warmed up to each other,
And then we separated."

"We parted for our own good
In the whirlwind of life
I saw her again one evening, aïe, aïe, aïe!
She already belonged to someone else."

"With the banjos sound, I recognized once again
Her curious smile that once intrigued me so much
Her fatal voice, her beautiful pale face
touch me more than ever before."

"I got drunk listening to her voice
Alcohol made me forget about time
I woke up feeling
The blazing kisses on my forehead."

"We met, we recognized each other,
We lost track of each other, we lost sight
We found each other again, we separated, and then we warmed up to each other again."

"We left for our own good, in the whirlwind of life.
I saw her again one night, ah là là, she fell into my arms again."

"When we met each, when we recognized each other, why did we lose sight, once and again?
When we found each other and warmed up to each other again, why did we separate?"

"The two of us, left each other in the whilrwind of life,
We continued to turn back, and embrace each other."

Translation from 小杨

神奇的小王 （7）

副标题： 再苦不能苦肚子

不知道为什么感恩节后的星期五要叫black Friday， 阳光灿烂的上午怎么也和black 联系不上。 大减价，就去买了个蓝牙， 从此威斯康星大道上会有个行色匆匆目不斜视， 自言自语情绪无常的妞儿， 你看，她的耳朵上别了颗蓝牙。。

本来还要去Macy’s 和Boston Store， 结果车把一拐就进了Pick’n Save， 买了一堆牛，一堆鸡，和一堆香蕉， 大概够一个半月的伙食了， 结帐的时候小姐说 ‘您省了6元钱’。推着一车其实并不需要的食品， 立马，就觉得自己又傻逼了。

回家做了个咖喱鸡， 不难，

灌装椰奶和一带咖喱粉，煮， 直到上面浮出油。

倒入鸡腿， 煮熟，大火收汁。

这个让Rita 和她的蜜分吧， 东南亚味道的。

剩下的鸡， 炖鸡汤， 做鸡汤面条。

然后的， 烤了， 彦琳找个周末你过来陪吃吧。

扮演炉灶飞时候收音机里放着‘Bubbly’， 立马就又掉泪儿了， 又稀里哗啦的了。 做好了，就又不想吃了， 直接放进container。

前天晚上和小杨在电话上没心没肺的扯了快两个小时， 觉得自己真的已经over了。

现在想来，或许那种伤感的情绪，在节后愈发浓郁，自个儿就被熏得Black 了。 然后这个Friday 也就Black 啦。

小范围感叹一下～～

我爱小杨， 我爱彦琳， 我爱小C
有你们， 我的生活看起来才不那么血雨腥风。
火鸡节，
给每个人一个油腻腻的大拥抱。
笑纳吧～～

We're all in the dance

Life's a dance, we all have to do
What does the music require?
People are moving together
Close as the flames in a fire

Feel the beat; music and rhyme
While there is time.

We all go 'round and 'round
Partners of lost and found
Looking for one more chance
All I know is,
We're all in the dance

Night and Day, the music plays on
We are all part of the show
While we can hold on to someone
Even though life won't let us go

Feel the beat; music and rhyme
While there is time.


We all go round and round
Partners of lost and found
Looking for one more chance
All I know is,
We're all in the dance

We're all in the dance

We all go round and round
Partners of lost and found
Looking for one more chance
All we know is,
We're all in the dance

Roomies night

For the sake of all the pain we had.... from school or .. life...

"There are times when life calls out for a change, a transition, like, like the seasons. Our spring was wonderful, but summer's over now, and we missed out on autamn. And now, all of a sudden, it's cold, it is so cold, everything, everything is freezing over. Our love fell asleep. And the snow took it by surprise. But if you fall asleep on the snow, you do not feel death coming. "
----Paris, Je t'aime

A line from the movie Paris, I love you,C and I checked out, from Blockbuster, it is sure that kind of moive makes everyone feels could be related with somehow, in someway.

Good movie with good music too.

Been There

Other Photos

Flowers in my room

Blooming on the night stand... the stand...

nothing but peonies....


the age of absolut...

welcome back..

Not for everyone to understand..

But you can not spell 'bamboo' without 'BOO' ha

Just notice that

the city I live

has somewhat


paradise looking


Oct 2007

Let Time Goes By

Avoid the temptation of filling in too many details on your calendar, for concrete planning today may not be as effective as you wish. Taking time for spiritual rejuvenation today is a smart idea and can go a long way to reducing your stress level through the entire week ahead. Have faith that your intuition will guide you to your destination.

Sunday, November 11, 2007
Daily Horoscope

Random thoughts after ‘In the dark tomb’

We had good laughs together,

We had good cries together;

We had days together,

We had nights together;

We had dinner together,

We had breakfast together;

……

When one uses ‘had’ it’s always semi-sad,

Especially, when our path

Splits at the end

…….

We may never live together;

We may never have kids together;

We may not even see each other for a very very long time;

……

But in my pocket, I have all the ‘had’& ‘together’

And years from now,

I will open the pocket and pray:

“Please do not bathe my ashes with venom”

….

Coz, they are the only beautiful time,

I ever had…

My Moan

From Luciano Pavarotti

Live Recital

Beethoven: In Questa tomba Oscura

WoO 133

In questa tomba oscura

Lasciami riposar;

Quando vivevo, ingrate,

Dovevi a me pensar.

Lascia che I’ ombre ignude

Godansi pace almen,

E non bagnar mie ceneri

D’inutile velen

In questa tomba oscura, ecc

English Translations :

In this dark tomb

Let me rest;

Ungrateful one, you should

Have thought of me alive.

Let naked shadows

Enjoy their peace,

And do not bathe my ashes

With useless venom

In this dark tomb, etc.

神奇的小王 (6)

副标题：重出江湖之坚果菠菜 （baby spinach w/ pin nuts）

小王同学前些时候因心灵破碎，久无饕餮。这些时日，元气稍有回复，重出江湖。

当然了，这也要怪Rita 同学，让俺替她买菠菜，俺买完以后她又说‘自己留着吃吧’。以至于造成了暂时性菠菜过剩的情形。 浪费就是犯罪， 怎么样俺也要为钟爱的菠菜讨个说法。

闲言少叙， 坚果菠菜很容易的

1， 热油，炒蒜蓉，

2， 出香味后放菠菜， 翻翻， 翻翻， 再翻番。

3， 同时放坚果， 最好是松子儿， 味道很香很香的， 但是小王家秉承一贯的因陋就简，放了核桃。 最后罗嗦一下， 松子儿真的很好吃。

4， 撒盐， 出锅。

那个鱼是红烧的， 更容易了， 两边煎煎，放料酒，酱油，姜片， 一点红糖，一点盐， 熟了就出锅。 两个菜一起做十来分钟就好了。

这般看来，小王的胃口还是不错的，即便是在这么破碎的时期，还不忘在肉蛋禽鱼的世界中开拓进取。 自赞一个～～

Winning Story of Nov 8th 2007

The girl and her apple tree
---By Ding 2

I am an apple tree, standing proud in front the lawn of the farm house where the girl that care for me lives. My story is about love, love that is unfathomable, love that is not easy to understand, love that is fragile, and love that is not eternal. The story happen during the time when the girl care for me deeply, passionately and unselfishly. The girl fertilize me, cut my narrow branches, clean up the soil around me, and watch me all the time. I am a bad apple tree, no matter how hard she care for me, I rarely give her any fruits, I grow my fruits slowly and randomly, troubling the girl that care for me so much. The girl stands strong, no matter how bad I treat her, she will always back and care for me. My appreciation starts to grow too, I started to give her more fruits and she's happy ... or I thought she was. It was near the season where I will grow a lot of fruits ... I was planning to do my best and give her all I can give. All goes well ... until that one day ... the day that change my life forever, the day that makes everything around me so gloomy, makes my soil tasteless, my roots shivers up. That day that I found out that she was eating orange! Imagine the shock that comes into my branches, she's enjoying the oranges so passionately, so delicately, and looks so happy. To that I can't blame her, I've been the one that failed to produce, failed so bad, that she has to leave me. But she didn't, she still care for me, but she didn't bother to pick my fruits anymore. I asked to her one day, "Why wouldn't you pick my apple anymore?" She replied in her very tender voice,"I tasted orange, its a different kind of fruit, not comparable, but I can't bring myself back to apple, I already changed my mind, I will keep you here, for now until you no longer produce any fruits, then I will cut you down and bury your roots on the best spot on my lawn, but I will not try to care for you or pick for your fruits anymore"

That day, I dawn myself with regret, sadness, and a burden that my heart can't take, that I cried and cried and cried until no more tears can be shed. There am I, standing tall in the lawn, watching my caretaker eating orange while deep inside I am rotting away and wishfully hope for a better life after I reborn again ... now I will just wither in the winter and leave this cold world ... for a while ... till I come back ... as the pure seed I was, with the knowledge of the wiser ... farewell oh my sweet loving caretaker ...

由grocery shopping 引发的一些联想，

牛肉的价钱已经降到了$1.99一磅， 牛奶的价钱却涨到了$3.38一加仑。

同志们，知道威斯康星州的别名叫什么么？ Dairy Land 啊～

难道我们的奶牛们都成了痴肥狂膘，不挤奶的蠢物了抹？

买桶牛奶都能被刺激到，

这次第，怎一个郁闷了得～～

看来，哀家又要自个儿磨豆浆了～～

From Albert Einstein

"A happy man is too satisfied with the present to dwell too much on the future."

A memoir, for the broken heart

还能怎样怎样， 一切打回原型。。

实在是没必要这般颓丧，苦着张脸，每日讨厌自己两三次，又何必。

想想小杨放弃了长我三倍的感情， 那么日子还有什么不能继续。

伤痛是肯定的， 撕裂了， 破碎了，燃尽了，不再有温暖，

哭也哭过了， 梨花带雨，残花败柳，劫后余生。

也只得珍惜， 说声珍重，再抱一下，

同一条街， 两个世界， 还在唱， 爱谁谁。

依旧不肯见人，不愿说话，

因为，

说了也没用。

那么， 我决定

断烟戒酒， 煲汤炖肉

跑步游泳，衣着光鲜

还能怎样？ 打回原形，

好好爱自己。

——————暂时性怀旧分割线——————

PS， 翻出N百九十年前离别旧情人时写的东东， 哀家那时的PH值肯定为零， 酸到自己都看不下去， 好在现在神经已越发大条。 所谓成长或许就是褪去一层层的纯真敏感多情，换为麻木冷漠安静的过程而已。 其中喜哀也只有自己明了。

谁的掌纹， 谁的宿命，谁的轮回

其实一切早已既定，

再多的百转迁回，也不过是，，殊途同归。

无论是劫还是缘， 我们相遇了，

带着良辰美景，残垣断壁，和风细雨，狂风巨浪，细弱易碎，坚不可摧。。

我们还是相遇了

然而表达的一切却终将是虚幻。。

看到的，不是希翼的

握住的，不是真实的

心疼的，不是自己的

拥抱着的，不是有体温的

要离开，又留下

大笑着，也啜泣

乏力，无力，气已若游丝

我们真的就这样相遇了,

生命中打了个死结, 要怎样去解？

知道曼珠沙华吗？就是歌中唱的彼岸花，

那片片溢香的红色，能唤起

死者对生前的记忆。

如果有等待，我愿让时间的长河将我湮没。

那时，我的双手会苍老干枯，会抚摸着一个又一个的，死结。

然后，

让那海水火焰，万紫千红，白云苍狗， 沧海桑田，

在我掌中，再次涌现。

It is all over but the crying -- Garbage

This is a song I got from Rita,
not too much, only love this one sentence ,
'It is over but the crying'
That is what a woman at least can do...
not necessary a bad thing,
not bad at all...

To Whom Barked Me Over the Phone

“低调是永恒的美德， 缺心眼的话就要学会沉默。。。”
----北京病人

“Make those stupid people shut up! ”
---Happy Bunny

补充： 我俩儿一周瑜，一黄盖，管你丫P事啊！ F8888R,气死哀家了！！
---Ivy

Right Now

Devastated 毁灭
Broken 破碎
Hurt 伤痛
Empty 空乏
Senseless 麻木

残垣断壁，

万劫不复，

撕裂，

从头皮，到脚心。。。

It was so beautiful, it hurts.

一切落幕，
而自己， 却在瞬间衰老。。

Farewell

When I woke up this morning, I told myself, it is another day, it is the time to put myself together and move on. I ate breakfast with tears, but at least, I started eating. I went jogging with two puffy eyes, but at least, I decided getting out of the room. So, you see, I am moving … on…

I am that kind girl, who likes to do stupid, crazy things from now and then ( I guess you already knew that.) Sometimes, I’m sobbing to myself that I might never met another guy who would love me half as much as the love you had given me. But I have to leave, for the best of both of us (at least, by now, I think so, or I just did another spectacular job to mess everything up).

To my little world, many of men, whether of friends, dates or lovers – are but dimly known and I met them only to forget them: but you and our past will not be allowed so easily to die and I will treasure … to the very end of my little life. All the images of us together will always be beautiful, from the first one to the last...

Farewell Ding Ding, thanks for your love, take good care of yourself as you promised me, please…. and I will stop crying…

Thanks DingDing

Me, being such a mess, can still cry in your arms and get kisses from you on my forehead.

Horoscope

My horoscope today says :" here's nothing wrong with being extra picky now as you weigh the possibilities of deepening an existing relationship or stepping into a new one. Don't let anyone talk you out of your gut feelings, for you probably know what's good for you and what's not. An impulsive choice may not serve you well; taking your time will help you to get it right. "

I love the word 'impulsive', coz it is so me, and it is how I have been for so long.... The only time I won't act impulsively is the time I say 'oh~ shit!~'

about marriage

"Why on earth are you eager too enter into a lifelong relationship the only purpose of which is to strangely every iota of individuality out of you"

---- 'Everyone worth knowing' by Lauren Weisberger

红英语录 2

关于计划一个evening

小王： 我把你放在书店， 你就自己转转。
红英： 然后呢？
小王：然后找点东西吃。
红英： 然后呢？
小王：　然后我去教课，　下课来接你呀，
红英： 然后呢？
小王 （瞪眼， 怒～） 哪有那么多然后？！
红英 （低头， 委屈）。。。。 我一直再等你讲晚饭的事啊～～


关于未来

小王： 那辆车很好啊， 以后有了孩子就买一辆， 后座还可以放 baby seat.
红英: 你什么时候生孩子啊～？
小王： 过两年吧，
红英： 那你什么时候结婚啊～？
小王： 过两年吧，
红英： 不是要先结婚吗～？
小王： 到时候再说吧，
红英： 。。。。被你打倒了。。。。

note: 这位姑娘做人可真是认真哇～

红英语录 1

关于微波壶

红英 ： 壶里没热水啦～
小王： 去接点，放到微波炉里热一下就好了。
红英: 不知道这个是不是可微波的壶啊？
小王： 去微一下 就知道了嘛
红英： 要是把壶微坏了怎么办？
小王： 那就证明这个是个不可微波的水壶嘞？
红英： 那我就没有壶用了。
小王： 我以为你只想知道可不可以微波。
红英： ？？？？


关于当电灯泡

红英： 你要是去约会我就不跟你去了，，，，当电灯泡。
小王： 我要是去约会， 你想去我也不带你去。
。。。。（两分钟后）。。。。
红英 (自言自语)： 带我去我也不去。。
小王： 我都说了不带你去的了～～～

Valuable information for first time job seeker

孙小猴 （电话上）： 喂， 那个job fair 你去了吗？ 怎么样啊？
小王 （电话上）： 嗯， 去了， 不太好玩， 倒是免费的 cookie 还不错， 尤其是那个raisin 的，很新鲜。 你去的时候，不要忘记多吃些。
孙小猴 （电话上）： 嗯 ， 好， 知道了。。拜拜。。

唉～～

心不甘
求不得

可谓人生两大哀

Over

伴娘生意是做不下去了。 四场婚礼Cancel 了仨， 还剩一个是换了男主角的。

唉， 人算不如天算， 感情之事更是无从算起。

不爱了就是不爱了，

不管当时是怎般的如胶似漆。

亦舒师太曾说，当一个男人不再爱一个女人的时候，那么， 她哭也是错；笑也是错，呼吸也是错；死了都是错。

可是当一个女人决定离开一个男人的时候， 她还是觉得自己错；是自己在自私；是自己不够好；是自己对生活要求太多；是自己伤了对方的心；。。。

没有一个女人分手时不是哭的天崩地裂肝肠寸断的，

不难过不痛苦不伤心是不可能的，

可是不爱了就是不爱了，

我们， 还是， 走了。

发言

To Yanlin
美女， 我现在在St Louis, 等我回去，咱们就合计Lexington 的事儿。

To Janet
我 try 啊 try， 揍是上不去你的blog， 其实也上不去我以前的myspace.
try 拆开了看揍是‘讨人厌’的拼音首字母哇～～
亲爱滴，系不系考虑应观众要求搬个家啥地？
看不了你滴Blog让俺很焦虑哇～～

To 茄哥
颁你个‘最佳潜水奖’
憋洗你丫的！！

发言完毕～

风城 之 千年公园

又是一个星期没写， 其实也没闲着， 上个周末去了芝加哥的千年公园。 说来惭愧， 芝加哥去了那么多次， 顶顶有名的Millennium Park还是第一次去。芝加哥又称风城， 自是因为平日刮得厉害这次可真是上天公做美，晴空万里，那小风儿柔的 ， 让你坐在路边都能睡上一小觉儿。

皇冠喷泉 （crown fountain）

以前一直是听说过没见过， 这次看看， 还真觉得好玩。 屏幕上的人换着表情。 都是普通人， 时而沮丧，时而高兴， 时而。。。哗～～的一声吐出一注水来。 最高兴的就是小孩子们了， 完全是拿喷泉当瀑布了。 还有就是十来岁的比基尼美女， 给在繁华市区的公园增色不少。

Cloud Gate on the AT&T Plaza

不知道中文该怎么翻了， 反正在不知道这玩意儿叫什么名儿之前，我一直称它为 “那个肾”肾， 携‘什么’的‘什’的音， 图个好玩， 觉果被人指责煞了不少风景。 不管怎么说吧，作为著名滴英国艺术家Kapoor的第一个室外艺术作品，这个肾成功的是一塌糊涂。 拿它做背景， 能将芝加哥的市中心照出个大半个。 艺术基于简洁， 就是这个意思了吧～～

Jay Pritzker Pavilion

介个， 俺就更不知道咋翻名字了， 其实揍是个室外大剧院， 里面配有一流的音箱设备， 外面的草坪能容纳7000多人。National Medal of Art 得主设计师Frank Gehry以他的智慧将曲高和寡高的高雅赋予了万众拥蹩的热情。 马友友，朗朗今年夏天在这里又有免费的演出。 不过以哀家的经验， 坐在草地上听音乐会，如果不喷蚊不叮的话是会死的很难看的。

最后， 好吧， 我承认， 这一段时间娱乐活动繁忙， 自打从费城回来，连行头都没赶上换。 两个半星期过去了， 俺还没有。。。do laundry 呢。